Sometimes I read a book and I don’t know WHAT to think. Did I passionately love it with the fire of a thousand suns? Do I want to bury it 90 feet under and set a 3-headed hellhound named Cerberus to guard it? Seriously: WHAT ARE MY EMOTIONS? HOW DO I FUNCTION? So I just review it, slap a rating on, and think about it later.
(FYI: those last two all-caps shouted statements apply to many areas of my life unfortunately. Do I want a a chocolate sandwich or chocolate cake? Do I buy that book now or wait for a sale? What are my emotions on this? How do I function? Etc. Etc. Life is really terribly hard. PITY ME.)
Because of the above regular life-crisis, I often feel differently about books as time passes.
And by “feel differently” I mean — MY OPINION HAS WILDLY CHANGED, CUE BREAKING PLATES IN PASSIONATE FEELING.
There are also some SENSIBLE REASONS my mind changes about a book, and I shall share them.
REASONS I CHANGE MY MIND OVER BOOKS LATER ON
- I review books directly after reading them. I’m talking SECONDS after finishing them. (Because reviewing is my most favourite thing.) So sometimes I review in the wild woolly wonder of the moment, and then realise — later — that my opinions HAVE CHANGED. It’s all very befuddling.
- I lose interest in a series/topic/style I used to love. A HUGE guilty party here is — dystopian. Three yeas ago I would’ve gladly traded my cake (YES MY CAKE. THIS IS SERIOUS) for a dystopian. Now? Eh. I don’t even care for them??? So that Great Dystopian Book I loved 3 years ago has dimmed on my joy radar.
- I read a review that points out a LOT OF FLAWS I DIDN’T SEE. This might be cheating??? But someone else will highlight problematic subtext or message I didn’t notice, and I’ll be like “Hoooow do I like the book now that I see THAT?????”
- The author does something Not Nice. I fully admit that this is unfair. I think books should be separate to their authors. Buuuuut, excuse my human tendencies to HOLD A GRUDGE, but once I see an author behave badly or do something I vehemently disagree with — my opinion on their work can zoooooooom dooooooown.
- I read something WAY BETTER later. And I find myself staring at a book I used to rave about and going, “Why? What did I even see in it? I HAVE SEEN THE TRUE LIGHT.”
Today’s Top Ten Tuesday prompt is “Ten Books I Feel Differently About After Time Has Passed“ which I would say maybe happens to 1 out of 30 books I read. I don’t change my Goodreads reviews though because WHO HAS TIME FOR THAT??? The dragon secretaries are useless, to be honest. It’s impossible to get good mythological help these days.
1. RED QUEEN BY VICTORIA AVEYARD (IN RETROSPECT MY OPINION WENT DOWN)
I squint suspiciously at this book and confess I believe it is THOROUGHLY OVER-HYPED. It took pieces of The Selection, Red Rising, The Hunger Games, and X-Men and someone got called “a unique and amazing YA book”???? I mean??? How???? It thieved 80% of the plot???? AHEM.
But there was ONE TWIST at the end that made me give it 3-stars. Now, though? I’m Miss Unimpressed and have exactly no good feelings towards it and would rate it 2-stars.
2. ONLY EVER YOURS BY LOUISE O’NIELL (IN RETROSPECT: MY OPINION WENT UP)
I hated this book. I WAS SO DISTURBED. It’s about a dystopian society where girls are raised as sex slaves and it’s horribly confronting. It basically takes a lot of subtle messages society promotes today and just explodes them. It’s about eating disorders and horrible body image ideals and mental health issues and just the RUIN that is thinking one gender is better than the other. Also the ending is 1000% depressing. UGH UGH UGH.
But you know what? It’s a really good book. It’s really important. IT MADE ME THINK. I did actually demand the dragon secretaries go back and up the Goodreads rating on this and I HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT.
FYI: I’m actually too traumatised, though, to read Asking For It. But someday I will gather strength.
3. SERAPHINA BY RACHEL HARTMAN (IN RETROSPECT: MY OPINION WENT UP)
At first I was like “eh”.
Then I grew a brain and appreciated a) the glory that is DRAGONS, b) the genius that is detailed and complex fantasy world building, and c) DRAGONS DRAGONS DRAGONS. Don’t mess with the wonder that are dragons.
I also have this one on my list to re-read so I can devour the sequel. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS BOOK…yet I gave it 3-stars?
Moral of the story: don’t even listen to me omg what even.
4. SINCE YOU’VE BEEN GONE BY MORGAN MATSON (IN RETROSPECT MY OPINION WENT DOWN)
First response: “I LOOOOOVE THIS QUIRKY LIST-ADORING BOOK. LET ME HUG IT FOR 9 YEARS.”
Secondary response: “Wait…was it advocating that quiet people can’t be happy until they lead extroverted lives???”
Now I’m just CONFUSED as what to think. I read someone’s review (I’d link but I don’t remember who; I’M SORRY) and they talked about how Emily was “nobody” without her friends and how it basically made Emily conquer her introversion with the list of crazy-outgoing things. Yeah. Not happy, Marge. But I gave the book 5-stars at time so…I don’t know what to think now. #halp
5. THERE WILL BE LIES BY NICK LAKE (IN RETROSPECT MY OPINION WENT UP)
My initial response was honestly “WHAT IN THE PLUM PUDDING DID I JUST READ” because this book features unreliable narrators and a lot of blank spaces. LITERAL blank spaces. Because the narrator is deaf. But does the book fill you in on that detail? Nooooooo. So for 100-pages I thought my copy was BROKEN because of the holes in the text.
In retrospect, the book is genius. It’s mind-twisty and uses unique formatting to highlight the difficulties of a disability. ALL THE PRAISE.
6. SIX OF CROWS BY LEIGH BARDUGO (IN RETROSPECT: MY OPINION WENT UP)
I did rate it 4-stars initially, but I was annoyed the book didn’t focus more on Kaz. KAZ THE PRECIOUS DUMPLING OF COLD CALCULATED EVIL.
In retrospect, I a) want to re-read it, b) want to hug it, c) want to pet the cover 9598 times, d) want to name my firstborn Kaz, e) will settle for naming my first fish Kaz because I probably won’t have children, f) I probably won’t have fish EITHER, honestly, because I hate fish, g) so my firstborn pet lobster, h) anyway basically I just adore this anti-hero book SO MUCH.
7. WINTER BY MARISSA MEYER (IN RETROSPECT: MY OPINION WENT DOWN)
Okay, calm your little pitchforks. I DO LIKE THIS BOOK STILL. But I think I rated it 5-stars because I expected to adore it.
My later feelings? It was honestly too easy. It dragged in the middle A LOT. It is ridiculous that NO ONE HAD A PLAN THE ENTIRE BOOK; THEY JUST WINGED IT. Where has my realism gone??
8. DIVERGENT BY VERONICA ROTH (IN RETROSPECT MY OPINION WENT DOWN)
I still like this series. And oh gosh, I will stand here with a very small sign (because I am small and weak) that also declares my love for Allegiant’s ending UNTIL THE FOUR HORSEMEN OF THE APOCALYPSE COMES AND FORCES ME TO GIVE UP. Or until I get hungry and need a sandwich.
But I think it only got popular because of The Hunger Games. It piggy-backed that success. Otherwise, the writing is honestly very emotionless. And the only time I connected to Tris was when she switched Factions for the food. #relatable
9. THRONE OF GLASS BY SARAH J MAAS (IN RETROSPECT: MY OPINION WENT DOWN)
When I read the first two books: I LOVED IT. (Also, #HipsterMoment, I was reading them WAAAAAY BEFORE THE INTERNET WAS ALL OVER THEM.) But then Heir of Fire came out and I hated it. And I loathed Queen of Shadows more. I rated HoF 4-stars and QoS 3-stars — but they honestly should be 2-star reads for me, because I didn’t enjoy them.
I’m not going to apologise for this opinion but — Celaena has changed into a selfish clam. She used to value friendship. Now her word means NOTHING because she’s totally okay to stab her old friends in the back if she can get new hot ones. Plus every. male. ever in this series is IN LOVE with Celaena and that needs to stop. Also I confess I’m not a fan of stuffing sexytimes in there when your friends are dying and the evil king is being evil and ALL HELL IS BREAKING LOOSE. Please. Keep your pants on, peoples and get some priorities.
I can’t and don’t root for Celaena anymore. (I’ve basically quit the series. #sorrynotsorry)
I am also sad about disliking this series now…because it used to be a favourite.
10. THE DREAM THIEVES BY MAGGIE STIEFVATER (IN RETROSPECT: MY OPINION WENT UP)
“Wait, Cait,” you say, “aren’t you a rabid fan of Stiefvater books always??????”
YES. YES I AM. DON’T FEAR. But for some incomprehensible reason I only rated The Dream Thieves 4-stars when I first read it. I KNOW. I’M IN SHOCK TOO. It also makes no sense because Ronan is. my. DARLING. (FYI: I actually had a period of mourning that he is gay because I was in love I tell you. I let it go though. Because #Pynch.) I know 2014 was a really AWFUL year emotionally for me, so I think perhaps that came out in my inability to be happy with books. BUT MOVING FORWARD!
I re-read The Dream Thieves this year and a) IT IS A MILLION STARS OF COURSE, b) Ronan is still my favourite, c) Chainsaw, d) I feel really bad for Kavinsky, e) Ronan Ronan Ronan the incredible creature, and f) if I loved this book more I WOULD COMBUST. The end.
tell me about a book YOU changed your mind about later??? and do you review books STRAIGHT after reading them or wait a bit??? and last very important question: have you ever LOVED a series and then later on ended up disliking it??