I’ve always had an extraordinarily bad memory. I think??? I’m not sure.
At least I’m extraordinary at something, ok. Look for the positives. NO ONE is as good at being bad as me! #SlytherinPositivity Although I’m fully aware this backfires when it comes to books, because not remembering what you read is super awkward.
But I don’t understand why people get so judgy about it?!? People say “Oooh if you can’t remember what you read THEN YOU’RE POINTLESS.” Well, no. I don’t remember what I ate in 2002 and yet it kept me alive.
Take that, fiend.
Plus look we just compressed a couple hundred UNIVERSES into our head and you get a bit full up there after a while and things start rattling and screaming in the attic. I think this is super admirable even if none of us remember why.
Love the bookworm life! Love it!
But before we go on, let’s just make a quick list about why forgetting everything you read is still pretty awkward. I like lists. I’m addicted.
- People say “Oh I’m reading that book you recommended 3 years ago!” and then you die quietly. Mostly because who remembers what they recommended 3 years ago?!?! NO ONE!! (Okay maybe someone? But we’re not here to talk about functional people.)
- When someone says “hey did you read this book?” To which you reply “Of course I loved it!” And then they try to discuss it with you and like…maaaate. Back up. Unless I read it in the last fortnight this conversation is not sustainable. I’m just going to say yes and use a lot of emojis because I’ve got nothing.
- Sometimes you accidentally get books by authors you forgot you didn’t like. Raise thine hand if you have done this and wept.
- You can have such FIERCE love for a book!…with no idea why. Which actually is frustrating because who has time to do all the rereads that life requires?!?
Today I’m listing 10 books I keep saying “I LOVE !! SO MUCH !!” but I have really no freaking clue why anymore.
This is absolutely as awkward as you think it probably sounds. In a well-ordered universe I’d definitely reread these favourites immediately. But unfortunately the universe is NOT well-ordered and I can tell because (A) publishers are still printing stickers on covers and ruining life, and (B) I tried to flip my scrambled eggs into my bowl but gravity interfered and they ended up everywhere except my bowl.
The world has fallen.
Top Ten Tuesday: Books I Really Liked But Can’t Remember Anything/Much About
Oh and total disclaimer…I’m listing more recent books I’ve read since I started blogging. Because if we dive back into my childhood, it’s like one big blank space. WAS I EVEN A CHILD??? I DON’T REMEMBER.
WHEN DID I READ IT: the year of childhood, 2013
WHAT DO I REMEMBER: Faeries? James’ sass. Actually James dressing exactly like Maggie Stiefvater so I SEE THAT AUTHOR SELF-INSERTION THERE. Dee played the harp. Someone’s car broke down (?! seems a theme in Stiefvater books). They ate chips. (I’m doing my best but oh wow send help.)
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: (This is SUCH a nice question. Go me for caring about my feelings.) Maggie Stiefvater is my #1 favourite author and I genuinely can’t even with myself for the fact that I haven’t reread these recently!?? These are also her first two ever books, so not as good as The Raven Cycle. Alsooooo. The 3rd book never came out. Haha. Yes let me cry.
2. THE COLDEST GIRL IN COLDTOWN BY HOLLY BLACK
WHEN DID I READ IT: the year of ancientness, 2014
WHAT DO I REMEMBER: That this was the first vampire book I actaully liked! And….aaaaaand??? Yeah that’s it. I’m 99% sure there was like a “party” where teens got drunk and vampires ate them but they never knew? Also there was Gavriel who I liked but CAN’T REMEMBER WHY. I think he was super out of his mind the whole time. My people.
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: Oh wow very bad. I love Holly Black…am in total adoration but I just??!?? I gOT NOTHING.
3. THE CURIOUS INCIDENT OF THE DOG IN THE NIGHT-TIME BY MARK HADDON
WHEN DID I READ IT: wow I was such a tiny grape but 2013
WHAT DO I REMEMBER: That it was one of my first experiences reading about autism and I really loved it and related…with no idea why at the time. AH, CAIT, YOU’RE SO CUTE. (I had no idea I was on the spectrum too until like 3 years later.) Also there was a dead dog and Christopher (holy heck I remembered his name) hated the colour brown and I got nothing else.
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: Okay so I’ve actually heard this book is NOT good autism rep. Which is confusing because it resonated with me, an autistic individual?! Buuuut that was back in 2013. So I really really want to reread it and see how I feel now! I do not own it, however, so this is a slight puncture in my plans.
4. TAKEDOWN BY ALLISON VAN DIEPAN
WHEN DID I READ IT: when I was so smol in 2013
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: I ACTUALLY GENUINELY REMEMBER NOTHING. This book is on my 5-star Goodreads shelf. And yet I remember nothing. And I tried to re-borrow it from my library before I moved but apparently I was the only one who read it in the last 5 years and they GOT RID OF IT. Rude.
5. THE ARCHIVED BY VE SCHWAB
WHEN DID I READ IT: only in 2016!
WHAT DO I REMEMBER: Okay here me out, 2016 was a very stressful year. I’m not sure why (???) but definitely going to blame my lack of memory on that because it seems plausible. (I make every year stressful, it is my talent.) But holy heck I just remember the narrator (WHAT WAS HER NAME?!) giving people muffins and also rounding up the dead bodies and there was an Owen and I liked him.
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: Sooooo bad. I mean think of bad and then multiply it by AT LEAST 4. This is my favourite author!! This wasn’t even that long ago!! My brain is Swiss Cheese!!
6. MORNING STAR BY PIERCE BROWN
WHEN DID I READ IT: again in 2016 (look I tell you, that year was hopeless for memories apparently)
WHAT DO I REMEMBER: SO MUCH OF NOTHING. Basically my #1 memory is Sevro threatening to go to war for chocolate and Darrow being very tired. But in my defence (which is a defence made up solely of crayons and crying and croutons…because of the alliteration mostly and also because 2016 was a stressful year) I don’t actually absorb sci-fi very well.
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: Not surprised at all, actually. Which is why (SURPRISE!) I’m rereading this as we speak before Iron Gold comes out to hit me in the face with more awesome complex plots I love but also do not heckin’ understand. (Audiobooks save lives!! Mine at least!!)
7. THE MORTAL INSTRUMENTS BY CASSANDRA CLARE
WHEN DID I READ IT: I devoured all 6 in 2014 and wow I’m proud of myself in retrospect
WHAT DO I REMEMBER: I remember it as like one big bowl of congealed Shadowhunter sass and demon blood and thaaaat’s about it. Like I’m so confused about who Jace is. Doesn’t he have 4 identities and names?? Did I hate Sebastian? Did Magnus have a torrid affair with a vampire once? DID SIMON DIE AND COME BACK A FEW TIMES OR IS THAT ANOTHER SERIES???
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: You know how when you try to drink a glass of water and miss your mouth and suddenly you are having a spontaneous shower? Yes. Look I love this series! SO MUCH. It’s one of my all-time favourites and Lady Midnight just wrapped my heart in loving barbed wire and pulled it out of my chest (this is a good thing??? I think??) but the books are all merged together for me. I really want to reread this year!!
8. THE WRATH AND THE DAWN BY RENEE AHDIEH
WHEN DID I READ IT: the year of our pineapple, 2015
WHAT DO I REMEMBER: That I liked it! That I wanted Tariq to eat a horseshoe and die. That Shazi was epic and there was a reason Khalid was awful. Magic? Demons? Hey wasn’t there a magic carpet?! Also how did it end: I HAVE NO IDEA.
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: Like this is totally the reason I never read the sequel…which I will do!! I loved the first book, five-stars all the way, but I cannot pick up the sequel without rereading this first. Send me 8 more hours per day and 12 MORE EYEBALLS.
9. PRINCE OF THORNS BY MARK LAWRENCE
WHEN DID I READ IT: oh surprise! 2016!
WHAT DO I REMEMBER: Just that Jorg was a little piece of unpalatable compost and like the actual WORST SLITHERING CREATURE and somehow that was really interesting to read about. I have no idea what the plot was except they went into a mine or something at one point. I think Jorg got scared so he killed someone to help himself chill out. In retrospect: what the fork.
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: Well I want to finish the trilogy and I can nary do that while I have no idea what went down in the first. So it makes me feel like a reread AND also like questioning my life choices, because this was like the most evil 14 year old kid ever?!???
10. ALL THE BRIGHT PLACES BY JENNIFER NIVEN
WHEN DID I READ IT: waaay back in 2014, and you might know it was actually published in 2015. Yes, you little detective marshmallow. I read it 6 months early as an ARC because apparently I don’t understand release dates.
WHAT DO I REMEMBER: I mean, lots! But also fragments. Like I just know this book sTOLE MY HEART (and then smashed it, but okay then) and it was about depression and bipolar and I pretty much cried and I NEVER CRY. So this is a big deal. But not…much…else. I hear people talk about it and my usual response was: “I loved it too! But what even happened I don’t know!”
HOW DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL: It’s my “favourite”. IT IS. I keep saying this! I have literally no clue how the story went down! I’m going to reread it this year or bust my left eyeball with furiously intense staring at it sitting on my shelf instead. This seems productive.