Whyyyyy do I insist on reading crazily sad books?!
Just read the title! It does not say “The Last Time We Talked About Sunshine And Happiness”. It basically says “The Time Cait Is About To Sob Grossly Because Sadness.
This is a beautiful and poignant and sad book. I didn’t actually expect to get emotionally involved because I am somewhat Vulcan. But I cried copiously on the inside. Especially at those last 50-pages. Oh yes, there’s my heart lying in pieces on the ground over there. Someone get sticky-tape.
It focuses on the people left behind after suicide.
Lex is in her last year of highschool, hanging off the letterbox for acceptance to her dream college — and her brother killed himself. How is she supposed to function, or even ever be happy after that? And their mother? She’s in her 40s, but basically just says her life is over. She’s too sad. What’s the point of moving on? So Lex isn’t only trying to recover, she’s trying to keep her mum afloat too…and Lex has a secret.
IT’S NOT A GOOD SECRET, OKAY, PEOPLES?!
Lex had a real cold, mathematical outlook on life…but I clicked with her. Sometimes excessive snark turns me off and makes the character seem like a brat. Here? NOPE. It’s perfect. The author brilliantly wove Lex’s mathematical and logical personality into emotional moments that hurt.
The book definitely withholds answers. I WAS DESPERATE FOR DETAILS. But I had to wait till the last freaking page for all the answers. That right there? That’s is good writing. I felt the first 100-pages dragged, but once the story got going it was a roller coaster that went steadily down, my friend.
The book also touches on the fact that depression isn’t always super obvious. No one thought Ty would kill himself that night. They knew he was unhappy, but they didn’t know he was running on empty. LET ME CRY. I think it’s really important that the author wrote it like that. Depression doesn’t make sense. It’s really hard to live with.
I pretty much loved this book.
The only downsides (in my precious opinion) was the slow beginning which made me a little apathetic and the length which I think could’ve been shorter and tighter. But the ending! I GOT VERY SNIFFLY. Life is unfair and this isn’t a happy book. It doesn’t “fix” all the things. There are gut-wrenching twists and horrific mistakes. There are some horribly good math pick-up lines. It’s brilliant. It’s hopeful. That is all.
Although (shhhh! secret time!) I like the American cover better.
The sticky-note is very very important (although it says something else in the book, obviously). But SHHH. I shall pretend to be loyal to my country.
Thank you HarperCollins AU for the review-copy! The Last Time We Say Goodbye by Cynthia Hand was published 1st of February, 2015.
The last time Lex was happy, it was before. When she had a family that was whole. A boyfriend she loved. Friends who didn’t look at her like she might break down at any moment.
Now she’s just the girl whose brother killed himself. And it feels like that’s all she’ll ever be.
As Lex starts to put her life back together, she tries to block out what happened the night Tyler died. But there’s a secret she hasn’t told anyone-a text Tyler sent, that could have changed everything.
Lex’s brother is gone. But Lex is about to discover that a ghost doesn’t have to be real to keep you from moving on.
do you usually cry on the inside or the outside? and how good are you at maths?! (come on, be honest now.) by the way, maths + crying = my life. ANYWAY! have you read this book? are you going to?!!
Cait @ Paper Fury
is so terribly awful at maths she spent most of her school-life crying over her textbooks. Numbers just don’t make sense people! They are slippery little monsters! She much prefers art which has no wrong answer. Currently she’s reading A Small Madness which is also sad. Oops.