I feel like my monthly recaps always sound like this:
“Hi everyone! I made dessert, had a life crisis, acquired more books than I read and started screaming internally and never stopped! How are you doing?!”
— quote by me at any given time
I think I make desserts to cope. An interesting theory.
ANYWAY. February is always a ridiculous month because it’s too short, ergo it’s fake. I know we got that extra leap year day which I think just exists so all the babies born then will be a running joke for the rest of their lives. (“Aw honey! You just turned 5 not 20!!”) I also like to think the extra day means books bought on the 29th don’t count. You can argue with me about this but I won’t listen ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Things I’ve Been Up To:
- Last month I told you all how sick Atticus (my dog!) had been with pancreatitis…but he’s making SUCH a good recovery. He’ll be on a lowfat strict diet forever (he is displeased) but he’s off almost all his meds and starting little walks again 🥺 he’s even bake to being a brat and snobbing me. Bless his little heart.
- I honestly feel like I did NOTHING in February.
- N O T H I N G.
- I read a lot and felt like I accomplished zilch. I rearranged my room and realised I have a lot of books. More than five. Probably more than five hundred. 😂
- I had the worst insomnia flare up, by which I mean I just d i d n o t s l e e p for weeks and look after a while of that you get a bit hysterical. Coupled that with a few new blows in the author life, and it was a pretty crappy time all round. But I rallied, and I’ve been mentally plotting a new book I’m hyped for.
- I also hit 64K on instagram!
- And I don’t know about you but I’m so so excited for the Grisha Netflix series…!!! If you haven’t seen their instagram content, GO DO SO.
- And look, I usually keep my mouth shut about this stuff, but I just want to say I’m deeply disgusted with Book Twitter at the moment. Just the pile on hate from authors to reviewers, the out-of-context accusations, the way people snark at creators like they’re not real people with feelings …🙃 I’m honestly over it. I keep posting my memes and such, but when I go to talk about my books (you know, my LIVELIHOOD) I get crickets. So at this point, I’m not sure why I bother with twitter. I like making people laugh but holy wow the bitterness and attacking is at ridiculous levels.
- And I blogged like 3 times this month. I have no excuse, just that I do have posts planned for March! Watch out world. 😚
I am planning for March to be all for WRITING. The existential crisis, the doubts, the rejections, the way my soul resembles a demoralised potato — none of that has changed. But I’m trying to work anyway. Gently, though. I used to write a book in 3 days, but now I take 3 days to think about writing. 😂And it’s okay! I’m coming to terms with things being different after your health takes a beating. I haven’t written since November so I’ve absolutely forgotten how to write. But here we go.
- will be working on a thriller/dark contemporary 👀 my pinterest aesthetic is here.
- I also have been back to plotting a pirate fantasy I want to maaaaybe try after this.
- And I was gifted Bird By Bird by my amazing friend, @anovelescape, so I think I want to try reading more writing books?! For encouragement and also advice.
I feel really positive about my reading habits lately! I lowered my usually yearly reading goal from 200 to 150 and I’M NOT STRESSING. I mean, I am stressing about my TBR pile 😂 but less about numbers! I take 2 days to read a book sometimes and feel fine about it instead of guilty. A CONCEPT. Just ENJOYING the process!!!!
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Here are my reading highlights of February!
The Ruin Of Kings // easily my favourite read of the month. SO EPIC. And so freaking satisfying to finish a 700 page book (well, I listened to the audio) and just bask in the depth of the world-building, the scope of the magic system, the sheer magnitude of this epic and twisted story. I’m in looooove. Also Khirin is a Gryffindor dumbass but I still love him.
When You Get The Chance // a super Quiet Contemporary YA that was just…lovely. Two queer cousins are stuck cleaning out their grandma’s cabin, but they sneak off to Pride in Toronto. It has a lot of growth about learning your own privilege too, but also just heartbreak and moving on and connecting and cute moments!! (Didn’t love Mark though oops. LOVED Talia.)
Spellhacker // sci-fi! It was fun and had an intriguing magic-system and a total queer dysfunctional found-family squad that you can’t help but adore.
Break the Fall // contemporary set in the Olympics!! It’s about the #MeToo movement as well, and speaking up and believing survivors. And just lots of quality GYMNASTIC CONTENT. It was very stressful to read though with Audrey competing despite a back injury. Look, if I strain my book, I just lie around and die for several days. Audrey goes and does backflips still. Ugh.
Naked In Death // definitely not my usual read to try an adult crime book, but I wanted to read something from Nora Roberts SOMEDAY and loooook I did. I enjoyed this! The style wasn’t my fave, but it was murdery, a little bit scifi, and had some intriguing twists. I guessed one. I am Sherlock.
Blood Of Elves // MORE ADULT BOOKS. Who even am. But this is because I have a new resounding obsession with The Witcher 😂I totally loved the show and so had to try the books. This one is set after the events in the show, so Ciri is like training to be a Witcher and Geralt is a good mother. It’s like 80% dialogue, so if you’re scared of fantasy, this is accessible. Also terrifically NOT abusive to women!?? Shocked. And impressed.
Loveboat Taipei // loved this one!! It was such a fun read, fast and super intriguing, as Ever spends 6-weeks in Taiwan to learn Mandarin, and ends up having a super wild time. My ship sank in the love-triangle though. 🥺And this is #ownvoices and hit the bestseller list!
Havenfall // I wasn’t sure if I’d like this one, but it was a fun light fantasy — kind of like A Curse So Dark and Lonely meets The Ten Thousand Doors of January. This inn is the crossroads between worlds, and there are monsters and conspiracies and mysteries to unravel. Maddie didn’t really have a personality, but it was still a fun read. 😂
The Storm Crow // Yay I LOVED this!! The plot was very predictable, but it has a matriarchy, women in positions of power THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH, the main character has depression (it’s talked about in detail!) and I believe the love interest is autistic 😚and it has cool magic massive crows. Totally refreshing read!
Let Me Hear A Rhyme // this was just a total surprise favourite 😍I started the audio on a whim and it was PERFECTION. It’s set in the late ’90s about 3 teens whose best friend is murdered and they decided to make him live on through his music. And his music gets famous fast, but they have to keep up the charade that he’s still alive. It is so so deeply about grief and being black and being proud. I just adored every page and omg the plot twists. 😭
Heartstopper Vol 3 // and this was tHE CUTEST EVER. More anxious than the last ones, and really tackled how coming out isn’t a one time event. Also Nick and Charlie are so pure and wholesome and just don’t want to hurt each other and I 😭💛would die for them and their fears. Protec. I was having a super bad day when I read this but ended up smiling. This book = power.
Other Books I read
| WHAT DO YOU THINK |
what was your best read of February?! do you appreciate a shorter month or feel robbed too? 👀 and let me know your 2020 writing plans!