It is official: even my TBR is taller than my writing crisis.
Which is saying something because that crisis is very tol.
I also want to apologise for my lack of blog posts. See aforementioned crisis. But I’m…trying…to get myself together. Thank you for sticking with me. 😭I’ve officially been blogging for 8 years because GUESS WHO MISSED their blog birthday. Oh wow I am in a bad way. But see after this long you kind of run out of ideas, hence I’m struggling to blog at the moment. 😂
But hey you know how I moved last month?! Well I now have a library. YES A L I B R A R Y. It is mine. It’s all mine and I shall read all of it. (And yes I’m already neatly in their request box, asking them to buy my wishlist.) The only downside is signing up for a library card is always a delightful headache. 😑 It basically goes like this:
Librarian: here’s your card CAIT ANDREWS
Me: …it’s Drews?
Librarian: And oh wait sorry but your mum needs to sign for the card!
Me: ….i’m twenty five.
Me: the novel that i have written is on your shelf
I mean I actually just smiled awkwardly through the whole thing but ya know. 😂 In some alternate reality I am going to SNAP and yell “IM TWENTY FIVE” in the middle of a crowded airport or something. (They do this to me in airports too yes.) I was born in ’94, sir, not 2001. Get back before I hit you with the ’90s.
Anyhow the library is (1) huge, and (2) mine.
It’s so ridiculously good to have a library again…to be able to carry out stacks of books and wield my library card like the weapon it is. I have been starved (FOR TWO YEARS) from library access so I have a lot to make up for. The downside is I’ve read a lot of what’s on the shelves lol. But they don’t charge you for adult reservations like the last library I had!!!!! This is grand news.
I am unstoppable and full of books.
“Cait,” you start nervously, “what about all the books already in your room on your TBR pile–“
So most importantly…I’ve been a published author for a year!!
Well, nearly. In seven days, it will be A Thousand Perfect Note’s first anniversary and I just 😭wait a second while I dissolve into so many emotions. It feels absolutely wild and surreal to have two books out already. Like ONE YEAR. I am just a baby author here, I am so green and soft and confused. And I worked so so hard for this, but I also am lucky that I got this opportunity.
However a lot of being an author IS built on luck (lol sob) so I’m in a rough patch at the moment. It takes 2-3 years after selling a book for you to see it on the shelves and…no I’m not hiding any secret surprising book deals. I’m standing shakily while look up at a wall of rejections that make very little sense to me since I feel like my first two books have been loved and done well.
I’m not here to complain to you, but I guess I’m trying to say — please be patient with me. I am a little broken about the edges (having your plans crumble + having depression is a bad mix, 0/10 do not recommend) but I’m trying valiantly to keep going.
(and this is when I pile absolutely all the grateful thanks onto you for supporting my first two books. I want there to be more books from me so so desperately. So thank you for your sales, your reviews, your love! It is, quite literally, life changing.)
*:·ﾟ✧*:·ﾟ✧ OTHER THINGS… *:·ﾟ✧*:·ﾟ✧
- A Thousand Perfect Notes hit 10,000 adds on Goodreads WHICH IS A LOT AND I JUST 😱
- The Boy Who Steals Houses has nearly been out for 2 months — and it didn’t make the splash ATPN did, no, but I love this book so ferociously afjdkslad so I’m glad it’s been really lovingly received!!
- I’m cautiously toying with the idea of writing some short stories for them…
- My author copies for TBWSH finally arrived. I’m trying not to be mad that it took 6 freaking weeks but 🙃they are at least here.
- Sometimes I do giveaways on Instagram! So be sure to watch there. I will definitely be doing something fun for ATPN’s first anniversary.
*:·ﾟ✧*:·ﾟ✧ NEW WRITING *:·ﾟ✧*:·ﾟ✧
And look, I have had a rough time recently for writing. I can’t give you all the details but arusghsoooossssssss has been the general mood. But I wrote a new draft. It is a fantastic disaster but it is finished and it was a good solid reminder that I can still do this writing thing. It took me 2 months and I wrote 89,000-words. I even had a cute little calendar with flowers on it to mark my writing word counts. I am an inspiration. 🙌🏻 It wasn’t what I should be writing, but it was a passion project with monsters. Ergo it was very satisfying for me.
(Remember when I wrote a book in 3 days? LOL @ THE GOOD OL’ TIMES. Writing fast and fiercely? We don’t know her anymore.)
erm so I basically abandoned SHIP and wrote for 2 months which is 0% helpful for one’s overwhelming TBR. All I can say is R.I.P my goodreads goal. I mean I could lower it. But chill out??? Don’t overachieve??? What are those things.
I read a lot of comics and poetry this month and I’m still 4 behind 😭😂
(all covers link to goodreads)
FROM NETGALLEY / EDELWEISS…
…ok so I didn’t do a wrap up last month, that’s why there are so many. But also:
H E L P M E
I have made some bad decisions. But also library life so 😍
Usually I do the cover-hover-flippy-thingie, but…I’m feeling lazy (at least I’m honest?) so I’m just doing a rundown of my top reads of the May. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
BEST OF THE MONTH
FINALE | It was freaking amazing. I was super nervous for the end of a fave trilogy… but it was good! It lacked backstory and I felt there was missed potential but hoLY WOW I FREAKING LOVED IT. My heart soared. I can’t stop thinking about it!!! Excellence.
LEGENDARY | I did reread before Finale! ok this is absolutely one of my all time favourite books AHH. Gorgeous, vicious, beautiful and twisty…Dante and Tella are my faves and I just sort of scream softly every time they breath. Also the writing?? The world building? EXQUISITE.
ROMANOV | this is the Anastasia retelling that I’ve wanted foreverrrr. It was sad and dark, but also mixed in hope and the sweetest cinnamon heroine. ALSO magic. Good amounts of magic and heartbreak.
AURORA RISING | ahh for the mega hyped ones *awkward flail* I did enjoy it, but it felt like an Illuminae repeat. 10/10 would die for Finian but I wasn’t emotionally invested in the rest of the squad. Which made the ending a bit meh. BUT!! It was hilarious and good fun.
THE DISASTERS | Another fun space opera! A+ to the diversity with queer, trans, Muslim, and POC characters all leading!!! I want more of this in sci-fi ok. I did sadly get lost with the plot a bit and didn’t click with the humour — but I still rec it so much.
THE LOVE INTEREST | dude everyone said this was so bad AND YET I LOVED IT?!? It mocks so many YA cliches, but also tells a good story, plus two adorable dumbass boys fighting for a girl when they actually love…each other ajfdklsa. Aussie author too! #ownvoices
THE POET X | Silly me for not reading this sooner. Oh wow it hit hard emotionally too, with how cruel her mum was in the name of “religion”. I just wanted Xiamora to be herself, be epic and be loved. And her poems were amazing. I do love novels in verse.
HEARTSTOPPER VOL 1 | AGH THIS WAS SO CUTE IT IS A TOTAL FAVE. I love Alice Oseman’s cutest ever stories. And also these soft bois and their adorkable expressions. Unimpressed where the cliffhanger was lolol bring me Vol 2…
OTHER BOOKS READ
I have too many books to read, a very low attention span right now, and I need !!! to write a new novel !!! that is somewhat saleable !!! what is June and why is it attacking me.
SO WHAT DO YOU THINK?
tell me if you’re ahead or behind of your Goodreads challenge? 🤗 no shame here, only mutual loving screaming. and tell me what to read next because i have too many decisions!!