Sometimes I think about how there are only 2 more months of this decade.
Then I panic a little and, you know, fall over. This has NOT been my year, although I’ve definitely had good things happen (ex: The Boy Who Steals Houses came out in April, I ate ice cream like 2 mins ago, etc. etc. 😌) so part of me is relieved the year is ending. But the rest of me has 39849 things I needed to do and I feel OLD about it being 2020 soon. Pretty extra sure I had a white hair the other day.
Things I’ve Been Up To:
- I actually have A SECRET. 👀 (No it’s not a book deal lolol I wish.) But it is a writing-related secret and it is intensely pleasant and surprising and I am a sinister creature for saying this without explanation. But I couldn’t help it. I HAVE A SECRET. 😌
- I finished my reread of The Raven Cycle (including the Opal short story on audiobook which was gorgeous) and I’m officially ready for Call Down the Hawk and dON’T MIND ME I’m just literally dying with my heart falling out until it arrives!!!!!)
- I also hit 60,000 followers on instagram! Which is kind of HUGE.
- I’m still struggling to blog. 👀 I feel intensely guilty about it. I love you all so much and I don’t want to give you subpar content, but I keep starting to type a post only to realise I’ve already written it years ago. Seven years blogging and you kinda have done everything. I also second-guess my opinions a lot and get a few more derisive comments than I used to, and it’s all a bit demoralising. I feel like there are invisible rules I should follow as an author? And I just want to talk about books I love instead of add to the negativity. But it’s just ALL HARD: to write good content, to not see negative reviews of my own books, to fit it all in amongst writing etc. I need more ice cream.
- I also simultaneously feel so honoured I have a ton of followers (just passed 6,000 here and 60,000 on Instagram) and like, sometimes I get stage-fright.😂 I know it’s silly! But I’m like, patting my pockets, looking for some quality content. I am such a chaotic catastrophe, I cannot.
- However I DID revamp my blog headers and I’m really pleased with them!!!!
Besides my SECRET (mysterious music plays), I also finished writing a new contemporary (!!!). I’ve been pleading/bleeding/crying over it for the last 2 months, but I finally finished. I put so much into this book and kind of left my heart with my trio of anxious disaster kids. This is the pinterest board, and I have fingers crossed for the future of this little novel, okay!?! I’ve had so many rejections on novels since ATPN and TBWSH and it’s been so hard to keep going. But I am working forever very hard.
One of the things I loved writing in it was this really intense platonic love and just — gah — I freaking adored pouring everything into it.
However 🙃 I neglected to properly prepare for NaNoWriMo.
It still shocks me, every year, that NaNo insists on arrive on the 1st when I am not ready for it. And what did they do to the site?! They deleted all our buddies and I have no idea how to navigate it now. But please friend me again! I’ll approve everyone!
Currently the site is telling me I have done ONE year (I have done five????) and I’m about to break a plate.
But NaNo prep? We don’t know her.
I had a breakthrough like 3 days ago and my entire plot needs restructuring and I have outlined nothing and I am slightly dying inside. I am not doing any speed writing this month though. For the first time I plan to go slow and steady. I have a playlist. I have been daydreaming. I still haven’t named my protagonist. (R.I.P. me.)
It started off as a meh reading month. And then it got GOOD. 🙌🏻I feel vaguely guilty that I haven’t had many life-changing favourites this year? But there’s still time. I’m absolutely suffocating over the fact that Queen of Nothing AND Call Down The Hawk come out in November!!!!!!!!
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Here are my reading highlights of October!
Wayward Son | I can’t even tell you how anxiously I was anticipating this!!!! Just my brain was ALL CAPS EXCLAMATION MARKS for daaaaays. And it was amazing.😭💛Domestic roadtrip goodness. Utterly hilarious. I utterly stressed because these are my kids. I just wish Baz and Simon’s relationship had had some development. Or communication.
Ninth House | Again the hype for this was WILD and viciously perfect. It’s an incredible book, thoughtful but dark, intense but careful. Also it’s gotten such a lot of negative attention and I’m going to be real: It doesn’t deserve the hate. (Actually all the hate on it makes me like it more, HA.) It bothers me an immeasurable amount that people are yelling at Leigh for writing darkness in an adult book. Also, gotta say, male authors don’t get this level of scrutiny.
Opal | I mean, I had to also reread these torturous 40 pages of perfection. I did the audiobook this time and it was over too soon ajdfksald. But I madly love Opal and her perspective and just those snippets of Adam and Ronan. *pines for Call Down the Hawk*
10 Blind Dates | Okay this was just super cute and fun! A Christmassy read about (surprise) a girl getting set up by her family members on all these blind dates. It was actually family focused rather than romance centric, and I mean totally fluffy. I wish the characters had been deeper. But it’s FUN.
American Royals | Like again, so fun! Fluffy, but with some deeper themes explored (especially about poisonous media and the standards it puts on women). I’m not the biggest fan of the writing style (same with The Thousandth Floor) but it’s enjoyable. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
The Wicked King | umm okay fine I couldn’t resist reading it again, despite already having had read it this year. I can’t stop obsessing over this series afjkdslad, it’s just so cunning and wily. This does make me with Cardan had more page time though…
Wicked Fox | Okay this was just like a total traditional YA in terms of style and plot…and I really loved that. It was cute! Grumpy girl x soft boy. And so many morally grey moments and monsters and yes, yes, just take my heart why don’t you.
Can You See Me? | This one took me by surprise!! It’s a middle-grade and absolutely 100% perfect with the autism rep. It’s also #ownvoices, and you can just tell. My heart soared and broke with this book and, ironically, I felt really seen. 10/10 recommend it for anyone with autistic kids or working with autistic kids.
Other Books I read
| WHAT DO YOU THINK |
are you doing NaNo this year? are you prepped!? tell me your best reads of October. and are you reading for a new year or keen to keep 2019 for as long as possible?