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Q&A With Your Favourite (Me) About Publishing The Boy Who Steals Houses

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Somehow it’s only 48 days until my second book’s release!

Less than two months until The Boy Who Steals Houses, ok…um wow!!!! I seriously have to pinch myself because there were about one hundred and five times that I thought TBWSH wouldn’t see the light of day. It’s so so special to me. And you know when you write something super close to your heart, the pressure for it also grows?! IT ME.

Let me pause for the most small and soft and grateful scream.

 

Now I have three things to tell you…

(1) ARCs of The Boy Who Steals Houses are IN MY HANDS!!!! This feeling will never get old!! I can see my words in orderly lines on a page!!! It is my book!!!
(2) How to get an ARC? If you’re in the UK or Australia, you can request with Hachette Children’s. Or it’s also up on Netgalley UK right here. I don’t have control over approvals, but good luck!
(3) and lately, it’s high time we had a Q&A, right?!

Also I’m GIVING AWAY an ARC over on my instagram! So don’t forget to enter!

 

so let’s talk about publishing, writing, The Boy Who Steals Houses, and various devious things

I asked for questions on instagram and got…a lot. (Seriously, can never get over how amazing my followers are! You care so much and it means the world to me.) So I thought I’d share a few answers here too.

 

(and if you want to preorder…which helps immensely…)

book depository | amazon UK | amazon US | waterstones | booktopia

 

I did a similar Q&A last year for A Thousand Perfect Notes’ release too if you want to check it out below!

 

why do you call your books “your sons”?

For the very factual reason that both are narrated by boys so far! And I’ve had people ask why to the boy narrators, and it’s honestly just how things fell. I pitch a lot of books to my agent and editors and we figure out which has the best potential. My first books happened to be told by Beck and Sam. I think gender is less important than just telling your best story.

 

who is your favourite out of your two books?

Ok this is asking me to choose between MY CHILDREN. How dare. (But also I will totally answer because I’m innately terrible: but The Boy Who Steals Houses is my heart book. I love love love ATPN and am so fiercely proud of it. But I poured a lot into TBWSH and it has me all !!!! whenever I think of it.)

 

how long did it take you to write The Boy Who Steals Houses?

It took me 3 days over NaNoWriMo in 2016. Which was the fastest I’d ever written a NaNo book…! And ok, no it wasn’t the best draft, but it was a DRAFT. And for me it’s better just to tumble my intentions all over a word doc and then sort them into sensible piles later. (Ok now I sound like I’m doing laundry…but is writing the same as doing laundry???? I think yes.)

 

is your newest book going to be available in the USA?

It is not, sadly. I live in hope the USA will one day want me but so far…nope. And that is the sound of me whining pitifully in the background. (It would be a dream to get a hardcover, ok?! A dream.) But that’s why I point to Book Depository because the shipping is also free world wide!!

 

how do you format your manuscripts?

When I draft, my total method is “WHATEVER THE HECK I WANT” and I choose whatever font and just go with it. (Although lately I’ve been boring and stuck to Times Roman there as well.) So remember: draft = however makes you happy. It’s for your eyeballs.

But when I format for my agent and/or editor to read, it looks something like…

I use Word, double-spaced paragraphs, Times New Roman font, and the whole thing usually glitters with the reflection of my tears. Aw. I think this is pretty solidly the average formatting? But google. Google knows everything.

 

did you pay your agent before he found you a publisher?

NOOOOOOOnoooooo nOOOOOOOOOO.

I have to wave my arms wildly for this one, because it is the absolute worst trap you can fall into if you think this is an option. This is a scam!

A (legit) agent works like this: ➸ You query an agency (making sure they’re legit too, do your research) and they usually revise your manuscript with you for a while before they go out on submission to publishers. Nobody gets paid until YOU get paid by a publisher. Than an agent usually gets about 15%, depending on your contract.

 

how long did it take you to get an agent?

I queried for about 10 months before I signed. Which is relatively short in the scheme of things, tbh. But I want to say: I got absolutely and entirely rejected. Usually automatic form rejections too. About 50% of agents didn’t ever respond. It was like sending emails into the void. But you know what? It only takes ONE yes. And I only got one full request from my agent (Greenhouse UK) and one offer for representation.

And it was perfect for me. I am all the flail. (One yes!! That’s all you need!!)

 

how do you handle writers block?

mostly i sit on the floor and cry

No rEALLY, just ask my family and my friends. They have to mop up all the pieces lolol sob. I never used to get writers block, but publishing comes with a fair bucket load of self-doubt too (and you know what?! I still get TONS of rejections) and once you start seeing negative reviews and wondering about saaaaales and having impostor syndrome…ahhh, the list goes on. I get stuck. Like a lot.

So the two things I do are: (1) I cram the creative well full again, with lots of reading and watching movies and listening to music and scrolling pinterest (IT’S WORK OK) and I let myself have some space and don’t write. Or (2) I write anyway. I write feral little paragraphs that bite me back, and I just keep at it because something will happen. And sometimes any progress is worth it. You can always edit the nonsense. You can’t edit nothing.

 

Does Sam listen to Twice Burgundy?

I am 500% excited for you to see the A Thousand Perfect Notes easter eggs in this book ok? SO EXCITED.

 

most rewarding part of having a book published?

➸ making readers cryyyyy (also my editor cried, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)
➸ getting to hold it!! as a physical book!! my favourite moment
➸  actually telling my stories and knowing people are going to have intense feelings about them
➸ that moment when you write a line and think, “THAT WAS GOOD.”
➸ walking into a bookstore and seeing your book on a shelf…100000/10 best moment of life

 

 

what is the thing you love most about Sam?

ugh I LOVE this kid of disasters and bruises. He has such a very soft heart and he puts all his energy into protecting his brother (Avery) and loving him fiercely enough to make up for the fact they’ve both been neglected and unloved all their lives. Sam’s incredibly flawed — but I adore the intense way he loves and protects things.

#feelings

 

did you have any fears about publishing your book?

YES ONLY ALL OF THEM. What if people hate my book?? What if no one buys it and I never get another book deal?? What if there’s an awful typo? What if I’ve said something unforgivably wrong on accident?! What if all my friends hate it and it gets awkward?! WHAT IF IT EXPLODES INTO A THOUSAND SCREAMING MOTHS AND RUNS AWAY FROM ME?????

 

what inspired you to write this book?

(1) I wanted to write a genderbent Goldilocks retelling, (2) I go for long long walks every day and pass by a ton of houses, and sometimes they seem very empty and it makes me wonder…what happened if someone just sneaked in to live there, not to steal, while the owners are away? (3) I also wanted to write about autism (it me) and big families (I have one) and brownies (I do not have some right now and it’s making me sad).

 

how long does it take from being accepted by a publisher to being on the shelves?

It’s varies a lot! But an average is about 3 years. (For instance, I sold A Thousand Perfect Notes in 2016 and it was out June 2018.)

 

how much input did you have in the covers?

Noooooone, my friends. My editors and marketing team take care of that! They put so much details into the covers that it’s truly amazing. Beck’s broken and bloody butterfly is directly from a quote in A Thousand Perfec Notes. And Sam’s keys are what keeps him going in The Boy Who Steals Houses.

 

 

do you use a specific writing program?

I swear by Scrivener!! It puts my brain into nice little files and autosaves for me and basically does everything except make me breakfast. So 9/10. Why can’t it cook eggs.

 

how do you plan out your stories?

I basically write bullet-point list outlines. I spend a heck of a lot of time daydreaming to music or when I should be sleeping (lolol what is sleeping) and I piece patches of scenes together by running it all through my head like a movie. My outlines can get up to 20,000-words sometimes, so it’s intense around here. But who has time for being chill.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

how many words are in each of your books

ATPN = 50,000 words
TBWSH = 69,000 (that moment when the baby outgrows its older brother…)

 

how many books do you think you’ll write?

As many as I can!! I desperately would love to have a book out each year, but a lot of that depends on how well they sell so FINGERS CROSSED it works out. This is my dream! I work so hard with my writing and I have so many sharp and soft and glittering and dark stories to share with you, if I can.

 

how long do edits take you? do you draft other projects while you edit?

Ugh forever. I literally don’t stop editing until the book is printed lmao. Seriously, I love The Boy Who Steals Houses, but if I have to read it again, I will likely scream.
And I’m a one-project-at-a-time kind of person. I’ll have other ideas percolating while I write or edit, but I only actively write ONE project. And there’s plenty of time between edits! Sometimes I wait months between rounds of edits.

 

was it love at first draft?

Noooo…definitely hate. I distinctly remember putting this one in a dark cobwebbed corner and crying over it and thinking it was a disaster. And it WAS. But it got better. And then it got published so like, shout out to those manuscripts you love but are also murdering you.

 

do you ever name your characters after people you know?

No, but shh, can I tell you a secret? I often name books after authors. I write on my bed and stare at my shelf when blocked (aka when I need to think of a name and have NONE). One book in my eye-view was The Erth Dragons by Chris D’Lacey…
The last name of my big family in TBWSH is = DeLainey.
So yeah. There is this.

 

how much say do you get in the editing process?

It’s a collaboration process! Nothing happens without me agreeing to it. The best part is: I’m working with professionals who love my book super fiercely and can see it more clearly than I can (because I’m way too close to the project) and know how to make it better.
I did whinge at a few of the scene cuts ah hahaha…but ultimately I’m glad I cut them! Except there was a pretty terrific potato scene you will never see. I am sad. But it did zero for the plot, though 100% for my personal amusement.

 

which authors inspire you?

Oh so so many, but my particular inspirations are:

➸ Laini Taylor and Tahereh Mafi’s prose
➸ also Jandy Nelson’s prose, let’s be real here, she PAINTS with words
➸ Maggie Stiefvater for style and prose and character complexities and levels of oddness
➸ Adam Silvera for wrecking your hearts
➸ and Cassandra Clare inspires me with her perfect witty banter!

 

feel free to ask me anything else in the comments (about writing/publishing/TWBSH) and i’ll answer!! and if you’re a writer, tell me your top author inspirations?

Secret Meanings Behind Things In A Thousand Perfect Notes (ooOOooh!)

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When reading, we often wonder why the author chose to add that certain scene or description into their books.

It’s like this mysterious…”ooOOooo the red cloak MEANS SOMETHING” and we go and analyse it like vivacious little nerds. And quite often it’s true. The red cloak did mean something. We’re just not saying it meant something very deep. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Readers tend to think really well of authors but lolol, my friend, sometimes we are just sleep-deprived dorks.

Now time for me to spill my secrets, isn’t it?!

I want to list 10 things secret meanings behind things I wrote in A Thousand Perfect Notes! Who, by the by, is nearly 8 months old…they grow up so fast, I swear.

I do not promise 100% scintillating meanings, but !!! they still mean something!!!

 

PS. This will have no PLOT spoilers for ATPN! But I will be talking about details and mention Beck’s full name (which is a secret for a bit at the beginning) so — you’ve been warned!

 

(Also if you missed the cover reveal for my next book, The Boy Who Steals Houses…it’s up now!)

 

1. There are stories behind all of their names!

Ok this one is somewhat sensible and I’m very proud of it! The whole story is actually a Beethoven x Cinderella retelling. I always wanted to do a bit of a modernised Beethoven “reimagined”…and this is it!

➸ “Beck” is short for Beethoven, aka after the famous Ludwig van Beethoven
➸ “Keverich” (his last name) is the maiden-last-name of the real Ludwig’s mother!
➸ Joey’s name came from “Johann” (YES they’re pronounced differently, but this was just inspired) who was the real Ludwig van Beethoven’s father.
➸ August Frey is named after August Rush, the movie! So so many people thought I was inspired by This Savage Song by Victoria Schwab….um very much no. I was SO devastated when TSS came out starring AUGUST FLYNN. Like c’mon, universe, that’s rude. But I wrote ATPN in 2015 and TSS didn’t even come out till 2016.

 

2. Also this is why they’re all German!

Because of Mr. Original Beethoven. Also I am German(ish)???? My great-grandparents were German immigrants to Australia, hence my German last name of DREWS.

Fun and useless fact for you there!!

 

3. Twice Burgundy is just a fictitious band I made up for August and Beck to be obsessed with.

I have had SO many people ask me “I couldn’t find Twice Burgundy online to listen to???” Which is actually such a compliment lmao. If I can describe a band interestingly enough for people to really want to hear it — then wow, you go, Cait.

Back when I wrote ATPN in 2015, I was listening to Civil Wars, Imagine Dragons, and Of Monsters and Men. So imagine them sounding roughly like that.

And I named them “Twice Burgundy” for absolutely NO reason and I have so many regrets because I never spell Burgundy right the first time for goodness sakes.

 

4. Beck’s monologue about hating glitter is author-self-insertion at its finest.

At that point I was doing copious amounts of craft with a 3-year-old niece. And UGH I LOVE HER, but sfshgoshr her obsession with glitter destroyed my fragile sanity.

I hate glitter. It doesn’t love you. It wants to see you dead.

 

5. August’s shoelessness is because a lot of Aussies just…don’t…wear shoes?

This isn’t a blanket Aussie culture thing. But it’s pretty common! If you go to some shopping centres near the beach, they even have signs “WEAR SHOES” because so many people turn up without. We are bogans.

I also had a period when I was about 15 where I basically never wore shoes.

I also nearly broke my foot playing soccer barefoot…which like literally as I’m typing this is probably what inspired August’s damaged foot when Beck had to carry her home from school.

EPIPHANY.

6. I didn’t name a specific town-setting because I’m…lazy.

Because, look. If I said that it was, say, Brisbane — then I would’ve had to write it accurately as Brisbane. Duuuude. Dude. Don’t ask me to research. As is, it’s like what happened if Lismore x Brisbane got flung together and sat down in a mess.

 

7. August’s beetroot cupcakes…

…look. Beck is right. Vegetables don’t belong in cakes like that, seriously, August. Get help.

I’m meant to tell you the hidden meaning behind it but it’s only that I have been subjected to this. And writing books is nothing if not working through past traumas.

 

8. The Maestro is inspired by the Evil Step-Mother of fairy tales.

One thing I’ve noticed as I drift about the blogosphere like a well-meaning ghost, is that ATPN is making it onto so many of your lists…ALL FOR EVIL PARENTS. That stuck out the most lmao.

Truly, the Maestro is a deeply terrible person. What’s worse is that she’s justified her abuse to Beck. She’s making him “a great pianist” by force. And to her, that’s all that matters. He refers to her as “mother” like once throughout the whole book because he knows mother/son is not their relationship.

So she also plays into the “abusive/mean music teacher” stereotype (which is a very common trope in the music world) but she also takes her roots from fairy tales.

ALSO I’M SORRY, OK???? I hate her too.

 

9. Why present tense/3rd person?

It’s not the most common choice and I actually terrified myself into a spiralled hole pre-release that no one would like it. But I like it. And I’m important ok. (Also super humble.) But it’s the tense I love the most and feel so comfortable with. Present tense brings you deeply into the moment, like it’s happening to you — right now.

So you can suffer with Beck. Nice.

 

10. There is an Avery (from my next book, The Boy Who Steals Houses) cameo in this book!

I am so ridiculously proud of it. I was really lucky to land a 2-book deal upfront so while ATPN was still in edits, I already knew The Boy Who Steals Houses would be my second book. I could sneak a reference!

THIS IS PAGE 18.

 

➸ Avery is Sam’s (my narrator) brother in The Boy Who Steals Houses
➸ So TBWSH is actually set in the same town/same school as A Thousand Perfect Notes!
➸ It’s also set a year later.
➸ And yes ajfdklsad there are references to TBWSH in A Thousand Perfect Notes too! Keep your eyes peeled.
➸ Why does this make me so dorkily proud of myself? I swear the bar is so low for me to feel clever. But here we are.

 

➸ find my sons on Goodreads and Book Depository!

 

 

feel free to ask me if there are any other reasons behind other things in ATPN!! and if you’re a writer: tell me some dorky reasons behind your writing-choices?

Do You Want To See The Cover for The Boy Who Steals Houses?!

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I’m absolutely beaming right now because it’s time to share the cover for The Boy Who Steals Houses!

We are coming ever closer to the April 4th release date (70 days to go, to be specific) and I’ve been doing exciting things like writing acknowledgements (still a surreal experience!!) and seeing page proofs and excitedly awaiting the moment when I get to hold a physical copy of TBWSH. Which is, arguably, the very best moment of all.

But the cover…!!

Are you ready?!

 

Book Depository | Hachette UK | Amazon UK | Amazon US | Booktopia Australia

Preorders do so much good for new small authors (like meeee) and bonus, the book is usually a bit cheaper before release day! If you’re in the USA, your best option is Book Depository! They do free shipping too. Amazon US will get it in, but so far only the kindle is up for preorder. I think this is because I’m not published in the US. But who would know!

and you can add it on goodreads…!

 

🗝 yes there will be ARCs and it’ll be up on Netgalley UK!

This should happen early February, but I’ll keep you updated from where you can request. (Physical ARCs will only be for those in the UK and Australia, as far as I know.)

 

🗝 and this is a good time to say…if you ever want to interview me or share about TBWSH or ask any questions — GO FOR IT.

I do not bite (well, not on weekends anyway) and I love you so much. I’ve had a few people message me starting off with, “I’m so sorry to bother you…” pfftshtfffsfs. YOU ARE NOT A BOTHER. I’m immeasurably grateful to you.

 

🗝 The Boy Who Steals Houses is not a sequel to A Thousand Perfect Notes.

They’re set in the same universe though!! There may or may not be a wonderfully placed cameo or mention or two.

 

🗝 It’s 360 pages!

Compared to ATPN’s 288…so someone got long-winded ha ha. Although, as I was reading through for the 180th time and crying over copy-edits, I pledged to myself never again to write over 300 pages. So much more to edit. Why do people write 100K books. Why…why would they.

 

🗝 The keys on the cover mean things.

So many things…

 

🗝 There’s a lot going on in this book and I’m very proud of it.

It has homelessness and big messy families. It has anxiety and autism. It’s set in summer, so there’s popcorn and mangoes and a soft yellow pocket of happiness before everything goes really bad. It has brothers with a very intense relationship. It has a very soft and tentative romance (between a Hufflepuff and a Slytherin). It is a genderbent modernised Goldilocks retelling. There is banter and snark…and also tears and bloody knuckles. When I say “I’m going to make you laugh AND cry…” dude, I mean it.

It is dark and light and about being lost and found.

It’s about looking for something and stealing the impossible.

And there is a heck tonne of brownies in it because I drafted it for NaNoWriMo 2016 and I was home alone for a week and brownies is one of the few things I can bake. So like. There sits the truth of my inspiration.

 

🗝 I’m never going to get over this whole AM AN AUTHOR thing.

It’s just my dream, ok?! The process isn’t all perfect and I still have so many wishes I’m desperate to come true. But just !! knowing people read and enjoy my work, having publishers and an extraordinary agent who root for me, and being able to unravel the stories that make my heart beat faster…I’m so so grateful.

(And wouldn’t be here without my blogger-friends’ support! So thank YOU.)

 

me @ not being able to wait to take proper photos of it

well I am a happy swamp right now!!!! what do you think?! are there fairy tales you wish were done in contemporary and/or genderbent? ready to be broken by meeee again? 

Curious Writer Questions To Answer (And I Talk About Quiet Dreams, Critics, And Tropes I Love To Write)

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It’s time to answer some curious writer questions.

Mostly because I get to say curious and curiouser and remind myself that Lewis Carroll is pretty heckin’ famous despite making up his words because he couldn’t think of any existing ones. If that isn’t a big mood. That is like the origin of writers waving their hands vaguely and saying, “Can you pass me the thingie thing,” because wording on the paper is easier than wording with the mouth.

Anyway.

I am here to answer some QUESTIONS (that I pretty much stole) because I really love answering questions! I also love how writers can be so different with their processes and styles and reasons-for-writing — it’s most fascinating to discuss.

I’m always curious about other writers, so here let me just answer…

I got these questions from @rebeccarmix (who is fantastic on twitter you should follow her!!) from a thread here and am turning them into a blog post instead of a tweet thread because LET ME RAMBLE ON AND ON. So if you want to grab these questions for your blog, make sure to link back to Rebecca!)

Otherwise it’s nearly NaNoWriMo…so hey! Let’s talk writing!

OMAGHAOGH IT’S NEARLY NANO.

what are your favourite kinds of scenes to write? why?

Oh, hands down, it’s the banter scenes. I absolutely love them. Although the true irony is I put a lot of effort into making my banter sound, well…effortless. When it flows though, I AM MAGIC. I AM A MAGICAL CREATURE AVAST AND ADORE ME. (Usually it is a struggle that makes me cry tho so like, do not worry about my ego. It’s that smudge on the floor generally.)

I also really like the scenes were I absolutely break. everything. and. everyone.

(I am NICE.)

 

we’re all our own worst critics—so, what about your writing are you genuinely proud of? don’t hold back.

I’m genuinely proud of my prose! It can be a purple and flowery, and I use a lot of metaphors built from gossamer and eggshells and I freaking love it. I think, if you write the kind of books that you crave reading, then you’re on a good path.

I’m also super proud of MY DISASTER SONS. Ugh they are such ridiculous messes and make terrible decisions, but they feel like real people to me and I just??? I love writing my characters. I love it even more when my readers fall madly in love with them too.

 

what do you love about writing? what excites you? what makes all of this nightmare struggle worth it?

✧ i love love love writing outlines and developing threads of new stories and thinking, wOW DON’T MESS THIS UP CAIT, THIS COULD BE GREAT. (No pressure clearly.)
✧ publishing excites me. WILDLY!! seeing my book’s cover for the first time!! getting copy-edits back!!
✧ dude?! copy edits excite me !! I’m a real author!!
✧ I love finishing. Don’t get me wrong, I do love the writing process and losing myself in writing a scene, but that moment when you FINISH?! it is glorious.
✧ when you’re typing a line and you think, “Wow. Wow that was good.”
✧ the part where i explode into a thousand moths and vanish into the grim moors to avoid my problems

 

what’s something you’re not as strong in that you’d like to improve?

I need to get better at world building WOW do I just. I get so scared of info-dumping that I leave you with three breadcrumbs and a piece of cotton fluff and say, “Yes this my world, adore it.” Which is…not helpful.

I also want to get better at characters?! I tend to write many similar personalities (panics) and my idea of romance is often they kiss and then someone gets shot/falls off a cliff. You think I’m exaggerating but those are ACTUAL SCENES I have written. Because like what do you do with post-kiss emotions??? Burn them with fire???? hElp

 

we talk a lot about “big” writing dreams (movies! shows! bestseller list!) but do you have a smaller, quieter dream for you and your work? what is it?

✧ go into a library and see my book there !! (seeing it in a bookstore WAS UNREAL I’M STILL FLAILING)
✧ be blurbed by an author I admire (might be considered still a “big” dream though bUT I WANT THIS)
✧ have a shelf lined with books I have written
✧ hire someone to draw fanart for my books ajfdksald
✧ the cover of my book = on little edible cupcakes
✧ meet my agent/publisher in London someday!

 

are there things that pop up in your writing over and over again whether you like it or not? what are they?

The theme of “protecting” comes up a LOT. I find myself drawn to writing about characters who both need protecting and will do anything to protect another.

I also write a lot about violence, which is very ironic for someone who is a pacifist. But I like to explore things that make me angry or that make me want to do something to help. I write about how violence is also invisible bruises and how, just because you can’t see pain, doesn’t mean it isn’t there.

I also write a LOT OF SLYTHERINS AND HUFFLEPUFFS OK. I CAN’T STOP. IT JUST HAPPENS. The stab and the soft. My children.

 

what are some tropes that you unapologetically adore writing? what are ones you never write bc you can’t stand them?

LOVE
✧ tiny feisty people who bite ankles
✧ nearly-happened-but-then-didn’t kisses
✧ monsters who want to be human
✧ sassy mouthed flirts who are secretly damaged inside 

HATE
✧ alpha males ughghg my boys will nEVER
✧ any sort of cure storyline ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
✧ they-break-up-they-get-together-they-break-up
✧ mean girls

 

if you could hop in a time machine and give baby-writer you one piece of advice, what would it be?

Write more books before you’re published and panic about meeting expectations!!

NEVER LOOK FOR REVIEWS. WAIT FOR NICE PEOPLE TO TAG YOU FOR GOOD ONES BUT (SMACKS HAND) GET OFF GOODREADS YOU LIMP LETTUCE

Just accept your 1st drafts are horrible. They are little night-demons. Let them be. They will settle down someday and wash their nasty little feral faces and learn manners, it’s ok. You are not a failure for needing to write a book 4 x to get it right.

 

what’s the last book/last books you read that made you go HOLY SHIT that’s some good writing!!?

oh!! OH!! I have read so many good ones this year! But ones that just made me sit with my jaw hanging while I whispered, “I want to learn to write like that,” are definitely:

   

do you have a book out? a book you’re working on? tell me about it!

You already know about my first son, A Thousand Perfect Notes, which has been out for FOUR MONTHS already! (And also just sold rights to be translated into both Czech and Slovak! And Polish!) And if you haven’t read it yet (OMG YOU SHOULD YOU LOVE ME) it’s about music and domestic violence, disaster siblings, the softest friendship, a whole lot of dubious cakes, many good dogs, and saving yourself.

And my second book, The Boy Who Steals Houses, is out in April (WHICH SEEMS SOON) and I swear the cover reveal is coming soon. Eventually. Maybe. (I have really no idea lmao.) But just know !! it is about homeless disaster brothers, a messy big family, autism, thievery, a very long string of bad decisions, lifesaving waffles, a prickly Slytherin girl and the softest honey Hufflepuff boy.

As for my current WIPs?!? It’s hard but I can’t really tell details much anymore. But I’m hoping my NaNo project will be something that tastes delightfully and wickedly of a story that’s Jumunji x Stranger Things.

ooh talk to me!! tell me what you’re working on? and what themes/tropes/topics do you find yourself writing again and again? have you read a book lately that’s inspired you?

5 Things I Did (Before I Was Published) To Become A Better Writer

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One of the top questions I get asked now that my first book is out in the world is, “hEY BUT HOW DID YOU DO IT???”

And to this I say: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Okay I’m juuuust kidding. I do actually have about 13% of a clue what I’m doing. This is a staggering percentage and we are all in awe of it. (Hush. Act in awe.) I’ve basically been writing seriously for 9 years. I’ve been agented for 5 years and had a book published by Hachette UK for, ah….2 months. SO! I have a lot to learn still about being a published author. (I still rather feel like the child with muddy gumboots in a room full of Adult Authors.)

But I did get here. And I did do a lot of things that I truly think helped me get here. YES there’s a bit of luck and timing involved, but also freaking haaaard work. It’s easy just to say: “Oh look!! Cait has a big blog!! Now she has a book deal!! It came so easy for her!!”

Haha. Haaa hahahaha. No. I worked hard for YEARS so let’s see what I was doing, hmm?!

1. I WROTE MILLIONS OF WORDS AND OVER 30+ BOOKS

If you’ve followed my blog for a while, you’ll know I am a wild writer like this. In 2017 I wrote a million words (including outlines that went over 40K sometimes, and 7 novels…some of which were over 130K). That is a LOT OF WORDS. And truly, I needed them to learn how to write. Some might learn to write a lot faster than I did…but I needed SO much practise. All these horrible gnarly drafts (starting from age 15) got my to where I am = a published author.

Are these 30 drafts something you might read someday???

LMAO. They are not.

“So what was the point of writing them all??? Wouldn’t it have been better to write less books but write them better and work on them harder?”

Look this is a seriously good question. I did edit some and rewrite others. Actually the 16th draft I wrote was what became A Thousand Perfect Notes.

Personally, I needed to write a lot to learn. I wanted to experiment. I wanted to chase that glittery idea that probably wasn’t marketable. I had the time to do this and the energy, so like, why not?! I would NOT be writing how I am today if I didn’t have dozens of “practice novels” in the dust behind me. 

Most of these novels are: (A) HORRIBLE because I wrote them when I was, um, smol and deluded, (B) some I’ve actually repurposed bits and pieces into newer novels, (C) they gave me a chance to experiment with so many styles and genres! I learned my favourites and what I didn’t like to write about, and (D) I might still go back to some of them!!

Nothing is wasted. They all taught me.

This doesn’t mean YOU have to write 30 novels before you’re published. The point is: WRITE WRITE WRITE. Don’t just write one book, write more. Don’t except yourself to be excellent now. Practise. If you write and it’s not as good as it was in your head? WRITE SOME MORE. 

And heyyyyy = have fun with this, ok?! I have such fond memories of all these books and characters!

2. I LEARNED HOW TO REWRITE AND EDIT

This follows directly on from the last one but seriously: DO NOT JUST WRITE FIRST DRAFTS. You learn almost everything by rewriting and editing. Books aren’t writing, they’re rewriting. So if you’re dreaming of being an author and you’ve never learned to edit??? Goooo, fiend. GO. This is absolutely where you need to apply yourself.

3. I RESEARCHED PUBLISHING ALL. THE. TIME

People often think researching is sitting down for an hour and Googling around. WELL ACTUALLY. It’s something you kind of need to do…all the time. For years. I didn’t learn about agents and book deals and editing and submissions all at once. I learned it over several years with constant reading of author blogs, agent blogs, tweets, youtube vlogs and teaching sessions, articles, facebook groups, etc. etc. I just SUBMERSED myself in it as much as possible.

YES I asked real people questions…but mostly I learned by reading the information available online. There’s a lot. It’s hard to know where to start, but soon you click on one thing that leads to another and another and VOILA. You are gathering information. (You don’t have to do this ALL in one day!! So don’t be overwhelmed!)

PRO TIP: Don’t ask me “how do I get published” if you’ve never never researched for yourself. #siiiiigh (But I am VERY MUCH HERE to answer specific questions if you have them! And providing I can actually help!)

4. I LEARNED TO HUSH MY LITTLE SELF AND LISTEN

This is actually hard because you NEED to learn to listen and take on advice…but you also can’t listen too much. Like sometimes I absolutely freak out (STILL!!) because there’s so much to learn and know and remember and EVERYONE’S ADVICE CONTRADICTS. What can I write?? What can I not write?? Do you want this type of agent? Should you pitch? Query? Hire an editor? Get sensitivity readers? What country should you aim for? Should your debut be a series or standalone? Is your style marketable? If you get anxious about all of this, will you turn into a lizard? DoES ANYONE KNOW WHAT THEY’RE DOINGGGGGGG.

Anyway. It’s a trip to figure all that out.

But it’s still important to: 

  • Listen to what agents tell you (nope you are NOT the exception to a rule)
  • Listen to what readers are saying (because they will point out things you didn’t think about, especially regarding content if you’re writing something not directly in your experience)
  • Listen to what your writing buddies are saying (and GET SOME if you don’t have any! Seriously you can’t pick up all the problems with your novel yourself. There are always things that get left in your head and don’t make it to paper like they should. FEED BACK IS 100% THE BEST THING. Don’t be scared of it. Don’t hate it.)
  • Listen to the trees. Most people say “why would you do that” but seriously you can say it’s important to sit in a forest and listen to the trees but in reality you can just take a nap. You deserve a nap. We all deserve a nap.

5. I READ UNTIL MY EYEBALLS FELL OUT

I can’t even saaaaay how important reading is! These are your BEST TEACHERS. If you ever get stuck with writing (“how the heck do I write an action scene?!”) read back through like 5 or so of your favourite books’ action scenes. ANALYSE them. You can do this for any type of scene! Dialogue. Characterisation. Description. Let books TEACH YOU.

You also need to read so you know (a) what’s overdone or trending or popular or avoided (probably for good reasons!), (b) what’s happening amongst your bookish peers, and (c) because it stops you turning into a goblin who eats children at night.

Also 10/10 you can buy books for “work now”. This is perfect. Nothing can go wrong.

  

 

what’s the best writing advice you’ve been given?! and do you prefer 1st drafts or doing rewrites/edits??

How To Keep Writing When You Have A Mental Illness (And Just Kinda Want To Shriek)

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Yes, many writers struggle with mental illness. And noooo it’s not charming or helpful for our work.

Writers are often stereotyped to be, at the very least, depressed. And (I’m not kidding) there are people who openly say artists HAVE to be mentally ill to create good art. And do you want to know what I think?? mY FULL OPINION IS: NO.

Writing while being mentally ill is frikkin’ hard. It’s not a lot of fun and often it makes us quit, or lose opportunities, or not enjoy something we truly love because it’s such a fight to keep it up. You need support. You don’t need to be stigmatised or told you’re “broken” or told your work is more valuable if you’re struggling or sick.

I have been diagnosed with social/general anxiety and depression. I don’t say much about it online, but sometimes I want to mention it, because it’s helpful to know you’re not alone. We writers tend to look at other’s work and think, “Yeah they have it together and I never will.” Haha h HAH AH HAHA. No, my friend. I am just a constant silent scream.

So SHOUT OUT TO YOU. I think you’re doing great. And if I may share some things that have helped me…

 

MAKE VISUAL REMINDERS OF THE GOOD THINGS.

For me personally, my brain likes to DELETE everything good that ever happens. This sucks, but I don’t think it’s fully our fault. So I collect good things. Nice comments about my work. Tweets of people flailing! A really super epic thing my agent said. A beta reader’s comment.

Print them. Stick them to your wall. Put them in a folder on your laptop. DO IT.

This is not narcissistic. And I was about to say “this is not pride”…but pfffffffffft. To heck with that. BE PROUD.

Recently I had an excruciating round of edits. I ended up with 7 pages of edit notes and this insurmountable dread that I couldn’t do this. I must’ve failed so so bad for my book to need this much work, right??? Well, for starters: no, brain! No! Making something better doesn’t always mean the last version was trash. But that aside, what I did was: I picked out the comments on my edits that were super encouraging and I ENLARGED THEM, PRINTED THEM, PUT THEM ON MY WALL.

I have a note from my agent that says “Your writing is brilliant here” —> That is the comment I look at when I’m feeling like a pile of stale crumbs.

PACE YOURSELF WHEN IT COMES TO CRITIQUES.

Um, yeah, you still need critiques. You are not going to be a great writer until you get them. (TRUST ME.) Now you already know your brain is going to buckle when you get told what sucks, so pace yourself! Actually prep your brain with coping mechanisms!

Keep these in mind:

☆ don’t get TOO many opinions all at once
☆ you will overwhelm yourself and then turn into a potato and fall into a muddy paddock and ne’er return
☆ 2-3 critique partners/betas is a good idea (I like to have 1 who’ll fangirl + 1 who’ll be tough….balance!)
☆ do not work on critiques the second you get them back!! leave it a few days, a few weeks! mull on them!
☆ be teachable, because you seriously didn’t get it perfect on the first try
☆ NO ONE GETS IT PERFECT. YOU’RE NOT A FAILURE
☆ look at critiques as an opportunity to spend more time with your favourite characters
☆ eat between 2 or 9 cakes

YOU DON’T HAVE TO WRITE ABOUT YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS.

While I do love the #ownvoices movement, I think it brings this expectation to write your own experiences. You do not have to if you don’t want to. There is a need for your voice, your story, your experience on the topic! Of course! But you are actually free as an artist to art about whatever you heckin’ want.

I almost always write anxious characters. But the first time I decided to address anxiety with a label and treatment? My 27th writing project.

Writing your experiences can be (a) triggering and send you backwards, (b) exhausting, and (c) a lot of pressure. So you don’t owe anyone your experience, but do share it if you want to!

 

WRITING IS HARD FOR EVERYONE.

I have seen people say “No one will publish me because I have X illness.” And look…there are awful agents out there and narrow-minded publishers. Good writing and good authors get snubbed because they’re “too different”. Not denying. It’s not fair and it’s not right either.

But also? Writing is hard for everyone. I mean really hard. I’ve thought of my atypical brain as a reason I haven’t gotten an opportunity. (My first book didn’t sell, peoples. It got thoroughly trunked. A Thousand Perfect Notes came after.) But I do think…more often than not…it’s things like timing and us needing to get better at writing.

There’s a difference between “no one gets my writing” and “my writing needs to get better.”

The point is: when your brain says “this is too hard because of who we are” = your reply is “nO IT’S NOT. I GOT THIS.”

DON’T FOLLOW SOMEONE ELSE’S SCHEDULE.

There is always that feeling that you have to do “THIS AND THIS AND THEN THIS” to be a writer. I can thoroughly attest that you don’t. Don’t let someone tell you that you have to write every day or use this-and-this writing program or plot with the snowflake-method, etc. etc. Try a ton of methods and axe what you hate.

Do you need to write 500 words and lie down? DO IT. Do you need to write 200 words at a time? THAT’S FINE! Does it take you a year to finish a draft? AT LEAST YOU FINISHED IT!

There are so many ways to get to your goal even if you have to climb the mountain with your teeth. *

 

* SHOUT OUT TO SUNNY BAUDELAIRE.

DON’T QUIT. TAKE A BREAK.

I see so many writers say “I can’t do this anymore I quit.” When what they really need is actually a break. A decent break. I have been one of these writers, don’t worry! I stopped writing for about 6 months. Then I went back because ohhhh look at that, Smol-Youthful-Author-Cait??? YOU NEEDED A BREAK.

So before you get to “I quit”, try:

☆ taking a break!
☆ don’t write or think about writing for at least a month
☆ refill your creative tank
☆ if you need time off??? you take it. you don’t have to do everything all at once
☆ what if you ate a lot of waffles. I’m not saying it’s the cure but I’m not saying it isn’t…
☆  NO ONE HAS TO WORK AT 500% ALL THE TIME
☆ if you still “need” to be working or you panic (I get that!) then try doing something else: plot a new fun story, listen to some different music, write “bloopers” into your story (these are fun!!) or toootally switch up your writing routine
☆ get someone to flail over your characters. 10/10 this helps
☆ raise a kraken as your son

THE BEST WAYS TO GET BETTER ARE BY READING AND WRITING.

This is my #1 advice for any writer at any time. Write tons of books. It doesn’t matter if some are hellishly ugly. Write more and more. You get better by practising. I know this feels like an insurmountable request at times (mental illness often comes with feeling so exhausted from just trying to live) so remember no one is asking you to write a million words today. Or even tomorrow.

But don’t throw it because it’s not working. EVERY writer needs to practise.

SHOUT THESE AT YOURSELF EVERY TIME YOU FEEL LIKE YOU CAN’T DO THIS

☆ you don’t have to write EXACTLY LIKE YOUR FAVOURITE AUTHOR to be considered “good”
☆ just because it’s not good now, doesn’t mean it won’t ever be
☆ yes your brain will self-sabotage and yes you might be physically incapable of writing for a while…but you can still do this. Even if it’s not right this minute.
☆ it actually doesn’t matter how long it takes you to achieve your goal
☆ holding your own book is 5000000% better than you even can imagine. THINK ABOUT THAT. YOU CAN GET TO THIS.
☆ the internet shows you a lot of success stories but I guarantee those authors bled and wept too
☆ a ton of your favourite authors are also struggle with mental health! For my favourites authors (and these ones are open about it online) I know that VE Schwab and Katrina Leno have anxiety, Maggie Stiefvater and Adam Silvera and John Green have OCD, and Patrick Ness has depression/anxiety.
☆ remember to love writing (I know that’s hard!!) but sometimes it’s actually the perfect escape from your own spiralling thinking to some place where you can control the adventure
☆ think of all the READERS’ TEARS YOU’RE GONNA DRINK
☆ your story IS important!! no one can tell it like you can!!
☆ you got this because you’re kind of made of magic

don’t feel pressured to share your mental health struggles if you don’t want to! but if you do…feel free to add your tips in the comments! (please keep this WRITING orientated and not about curing/fixing mental illness) what keeps you writing? do you write about your mental illness or do you prefer not to?

Your Frequently Asked Questions Are Being ANSWERED! (About Publishing, Querying, And If I Ever Sleep???)

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For the first time in my small slightly rabid life, I am about to do a Frequently Asked Questions post.

FREQUENTLY. Do you see that?! Usually I am either (a) making up questions to ask myself because apparently I’m just that needy, or (b) just answering some random questions I’ve called out to the universe for! But this time it’s: FREQUENTLY. Because being an author means a lot of you have the same questions. Good questions! I will give good answers! Lmao complete lie I will most undoubtedly leave some troll answers. I’m just definitely feeling like I’ve made it as an author ok.

Anyway just in case you didn’t see me mention it 29894 times: my debut A Thousand Perfect Notes is now OUT. You can add it on Goodreads and buy it on BookDepository (which does free world wide shipping) or Amazon US. And my neeeext book, The Boy Who Steals Houses, is out April 2019.

I’M FINALLY A REAL LIVE AUTHOR HOW DID THAT HAPPEN.

 

LOOK AT MY SONS

PS. That is not the final cover for TBWSH haha no. But I’ve been told it will be yellow!

Also my author copies arrived and I am 100% using this post as an excuse to show you my ultimate stacks.

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO WRITE A THOUSAND PERFECT NOTES

I get asked this a lot. And I also go ahead and flap around nervously because THE ANSWER IS SO HUGE. I get inspiration from everywhere. I pull a book together from hearing a piece of music, reading a line out of a book, listening to someone say three words, writing something that means a lot to me, etc. etc.

Some of the influences for ATPN specifically are:

  • It’s a very very loose retelling of a classical composer’s life (can’t say who because it’s a spoiler, but you’ll know when you read it!)
  • Also “apparently” this specific composer was forced by a parent to play all night…
  • Also a small smoosh of a genderbent Cinderella in there (AUGUST IS PRINCE CHARMING)
  • I’m also a pianist, so I wanted to write about a musician!
  • I wanted to talk about low self-worth. I think it’s a devastatingly universal topic.
  • And, um…ok about 13% of the reason I wrote it is also because I wrote “COMPOSER RETELLING HIS NAME IS BECK” on a sticky note on my wall and picked it randomly amongst dozens.
  • I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU. PRETEND I HAVE A BETTER ORIGIN STORY.

CAN YOU SEND ME A REVIEW COPY?

You have to request via my publicist at Hachette Children’s UK! I’m not in charge of this and I’m not super rich so I can’t just send copies to anyone.

Also, when a book is out, usually now is the time to buy it! I know that’s not possible for everyone so: ask your library to order it in too!

WHAT IS YOUR DAILY ROUTINE AS A WRITER?

I actually don’t have one. I write in intense hits, instead of daily. But my average-sort-of-process-to-writing-a-book is:

  • Spend anywhere from 1 week to 2 years thinking up a novel idea.
  • Plot the WHOLE THING in my head like an epic movie.
  • Hate myself for all the explosions I put in due to dramatic soundtracks while plotting????
  • Cait??? This is a freaking contemporary??? You caNNOT.
  • Write an outline (usually 20,000-words). This totally eliminates writers’ block for me while drafting!
  • Write the 1st draft (anywhere between 3 days to 10 days).
  • Give it a break (anywhere from 3 weeks to 10 YEARS)
  • Pitch to my agent and see if she likes it!
  • Rewrite or edit extremely intensely (often I rewrite every. single. word)
  • Get feedback from one or two betas or my sister if I cry enough on her and she takes pity on my pathetic soul
  • REWRITE / EDIT SOME MORE
  • Send to agent.
  • If she says yes we should submit it to publishers: moooore edits and rewrites!
  • Submission to publishers!
  • If I’m lucky enough to land a deal — GUESS WHAT MORE EDITS AND EDITS AND EDITS.
  • A little book, in your hand. And me, sobbing vaguely in joy and also slight deranged madness in the background.

HOW DID YOU GO ABOUT QUERYING FOR ATPN AND HOW DID YOU KNOW WHO TO QUERY?

So firstly: I didn’t query ATPN! I signed with my agent for a fantasy book that we submitted to publishers and it didn’t sell. ATPN was the second book I wrote and gave to my agent. (See?! You have more than one shot at these things!)

And secondly: if you’re asking things like “who do I query”, I’m not trying to be mean, but you NEED to do more research. You need to google and read up on the immense volume of advice that’s out there. I know it’s intense, but you need to do it. Don’t rely on other people to walk you through it, ok? It’s not particularly fair on them to do the work for you. If you want to be an author, you need to do the work yourself.

ARE WE EVER GOING TO GET [INSERT BOOK I’VE BLOGGED ABOUT IN THE PAST]?

Ok so the awkward part about being a blogger and now a traditionally published author is that I have talked about a heck of a lot about projects that you will never never get to read. I’m SORRY. There are so many factors, from (a) if I even like that book anymore, (b) if I’ve kind of reused parts of it in other books thus killing it bloodily, (c) if my agent thinks it’s a good idea?! (d) if publishers are looking for that kind of story, (e) etc. etc. etc.

So I currently have a 2-book deal. I have NO IDEA what will come next! I’m working on things™ and I can’t talk about them! So I won’t say “no” to anything OR “yes” to anything. Don’t you love me.

WAS A THOUSAND PERFECT NOTES OR THE BOY WHO STEALS HOUSES MORE FUN TO WRITE?

Definitely TBWSH was more fun! As you know, ATPN is pretty dark and tense and the cute smoosh parts are brief. TBWSH has a lot of banter and shenanigans (BEFORE I TOTALLY RUIN YOU WITH THE DARKNESS) and there’s a big family in there…so the antics are madness and so so much fun.

I’M SO EXCITED FOR YOU TO READ THIS AHHHHHHHHH.

WILL YOUR BOOK BE OUT IN AMERICA SOON?

For now the answer is no! This isn’t up to me. An American publisher has to want to buy ATPN from my UK publisher and so far no one has.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Book Depository has free shipping though and it is currently up on Amazon US (although they run out of stock quite fast sometimes?!)

HOW MANY AUTHOR COPIES DO YOU GET?

This depends on every individual author and what’s in their contract! I’ve just gotten mine and I got 20! Now 19 because my family seems to think they are fREE FOR ALL.

JUST KIDDING. I LOVE YOU MUM. THANKS FOR KEEPING ME ALIVE IN MY CHILDHOOD.

DO YOU STILL HAVE TIME FOR FRIENDS AND FAMILY WITH YOUR CAREER?

HAHAH JUST KIDDING.

I mean, I need to spend time with family so I can steal their habits and mannerisms, their speech and weird Sunday lunch stories because like how the heck else do you write.

WHY ARE YOUR BOOKS YOUR “SONS” AND NOT “DAUGHTERS”?

Because I’ve only written by boy narrators at this point so thEY ARE MY SONS.

HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO ACTUALLY GET PUBLISHED?

Duuuude. There is no ANSWER FOR THIS! Some people take years. Others take (I’m not even kidding) 3 weeks to land an agent and a book deal. It’s your journey and it’s going to be different.

But for me:

  • It took 3 years to go from 1st draft to published novel.
  • It generally takes about two years from signing your contract to getting your book on the shelf.
  • If you sacrifice honey cakes and your least favourite sister to the fairies, maybe things will go faster.
  • Not that I…have….done that….

I also wrote a post on how I got an agent and a book deal.

HOW DOES BEING A PUBLISHED AUTHOR COMPARE TO WHAT YOU THOUGHT IT WOULD BE LIKE?

I actually had no idea what to expect. I mean, it ain’t all glamourous. Things aren’t smooth….there have been a lot of disappointments and hiccups in the behind-the-scenes of what I wanted my “perfect” publishing journey to look like. But hey me?!? Unrealistic expectations much?!

Also I never never realised just how freaking GOOD it would feel to hold your own book. To see it on shelves!! To have people saying they over it and it means something to them. And to make your editors cry. To have professionals in the industry ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOUR WORK.

UGH IT’S SO SURREAL AND INCREDIBLE.

WHAT’S YOUR NEW BOOK ABOUT AND WHEN IS IT PUBLISHED?

It is called The Boy Who Steals Houses and it’s out April 4th, 2019! You can read the proper synopsis on Goodreads but basically it’s about two homeless brothers who break into houses when the occupants are on holidays. Until one day it goes badly wrong…and they end up in a house with a huge noisy family. Genderbend Goldilocks retelling?! WHY YES.

It also features horrible decision making, #ownvoices autism rep, immense amount of sibling bonds, and the kind of ending you’re going to scream at me about. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

DID YOU HAVE MUCH SAY IN YOUR BOOK COVER DESIGN?

Nope! Total surprise for me and I freaking loved it.

HOW LONG DID IT TAKE YOU TO WRITE A THOUSAND PERFECT NOTES?

10 days for the first draft.

DO YOU EVER SLEEP?

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE THING ABOUT A THOUSAND PERFECT NOTES?

  • It is shiny
  • It is smol
  • It is mine

ADVICE FOR WRITERS WHO WANT TO PURSUE THIS AS A CAREER?

But if you want a book deal? DON’T. QUIT. It seems like the most cliche advice. But seriously! If your book fails? Write another! If you get rejected? Rework it. If you’re not good enough? Write and write and read good books and then write and write some more.

HOW DO YOU GET MOTIVATION TO FINISH WRITING BOOKS?

Holding a finished copy of your book is actually the most motivational thing ever. And I just WANT THIS?! I don’t know how else to explain it! I want it so so so much so there was no way I was ever going to quit or slow down.

WHY DID YOU USE GERMAN IN YOUR BOOK?

Again, because it’s based on a German classical composer’s life! I also had the amazing help of Maraia and Sebastian to make sure my German was, ya know…actually intelligible. My last name is German and my great-grandparents were German immigrants to Australia, but let me tell you: I GOT NOTHING STILL.

WHAT PLANS DO YOU HAVE FOR UPCOMING NOVELS?

I caaaan’t say! Did you know I kept ATPN’s book deal a secret from you for like 16 months? Ya. So I can’t keep you 100% up-to-date on what I’m doing with my publishing journey, but so right now just know I’m working on various drafts, my agent and I have PLANS™ and my publishers * probably want to buy me a pocket dragon because they love me so much.

* This is a full lie.

WHY DID YOU BREAK MY HEART WITH A THOUSAND PERFECT NOTES?

WHERE ARE YOUR BOOKS AVAILABLE?

In Australia, Europe and New Zealand = in bookstores! If it’s not, ask them to get it in.

Rest of the world? Try ordering online at Amazon, Book Depository, Wordery, Booktopia, Waterstones.

OR ASK YOUR LIBRARY.

so if you’ve had a burning question and I missed it?! go ahead and askkkkk. i don’t bite! except when i’m very hungry. and let me know where you get inspiration for your writing from!!

Happy Release Day To A Thousand Perfect Notes!

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My little book is officially out in the world today and my entire mind is just !!!!!!

I’ve dreamed about this day for so so so long that now it’s actually happening, it’s all still so surreal! Although this is the UK release date and Australians and New Zealanders have to wait till the 12th. (SORRY, BUT REMEMBER I’M WORTH IT.) But it’s officially: A Thousand Perfect Notes is in stores and shipping and in houses across the world and…I can’t even.

I CANNOT.

Insert me looking starry-eyed and shellshocked…and so so SO SO HAPPY.

Every time someone sends me a photo of it in a bookstore…or them reading it…or saying how much they loved it…It’s absolutely and completely incredible. UGH EMOTIONS. There were so so many years I thought I would never get here, but look!!

Look!! I did it!

Writing often feels like a lonely thing since it’s mostly you staring at your computer screen and shouting, “WHY” several times very loudly into the void until the void finally has enough and shouts back. (10/10 recommend for someone to talk to. The void seems nice.) But actually there’s so many people to thank?! I’m such a cliche, but IT’S TRUE. And I already gushed in the acknowledgements of my book…but just…

…thank you to my agent, Polly Nolan, for pulling me out of the slush pile and championing my books. I seriously have a super agent who believes in my work like nothing else and I am so thankful!

…and to my editors at Orchard / Hachette Children’s UK, Megan Larkin and Rosalind Macintosh! And the rest of the team! For falling in love with my book and making it 100 x better and being just the general best! My publicists, cover designer…LOVE YOU ALL.

…to my parents, who always supported my dream to be a writer. Which is huge, really. I am so lucky! And about 14% of thankfulness to my five siblings because n o n e of them have read it, but I did learn how to bicker with siblings from them and put that in my book. So at least there’s that. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (Although to the ones that have preordered…you can stay.)

…I’m going to thank cake because I can’t be stopped.

…NO thanks to my dog. Who leaves the room when I try to pet him and thinks my entire bed is his and I am still missing a sock what the heck did you do with it. Stuart in the book is YOU.

…and a Specific Classical Musician (won’t say the name because it’s a bit of a spoiler for my book!) who I listened to on repeat in my teendom until my mum literally took the CD off me.

…to my critique partner, Emily!! Bookstagram Pastel Queen!

…and Maraia (and Sebastian!) for all the help translating the German!

…and just generally Maraia who suffers through reading so many bad drafts of so many books and who is just an incredible friend. I can’t even. You are the best. All our endless texts and book discussions mean the world to me.

….and you. I mean, look at you all. You’re reading this post. You’ve probably read MANY of my posts. You’ve cheered my blog, my social medias, my photography, my snippets, the time I threatened to sort cereal into Hogwarts houses, and my millions of typos because, even now, I pretty much can’t spell. THANK YOU, MY BLOGGING FRIENDS. You are incredible and supportive and it means the worlddddd to me. I’m actually gushing. The Vulcan piece of bread has fallen. I hope you’re happy.

  • I wrote a post on my publishing journey and I was VERY EMOTIONAL.
  • A Thousand Perfect Notes is listed amongst the “romance bestsellers” on Book Depository AND it’s ranked 224…I don’t remotely understand the rankings there, but out of the thousands upon thousands of books, that seems pretty freeeeeaking awesome?!? (It’s not really a romance though but THANKS ANYWAY, BOOK DEPOSITORY.)
  • Move over fanart I have FAN CAKE, which is literally the peak of my author life.
  • People on instagram have been sending me SO MANY PHOTOS and my heart is so so full!
  • It’s literally out in bookstores?!? ON SHELVES. IT IS ON SHELVES.
  • SHELVES
  • IN A BOOKSTORE
  • MY ACTUAL DREAM
  • Someone messaged me this and I just !!!!
  • My blog tour is being lovely!!
  • No Safer Place = why I wrote A Thousand Perfect Notes and the inspiration behind it
  • Once Upon A Bookcase = interview with my cover designer + some looks at early drafts which is sO COOL
  • A Whisper Of Ink = interview with me and the COMPLETELY NICEST REVIEW
  • And more coming!! I will be tweeting links!
  • My book is featured on Kobo’s picks of the month!
  • Incredible reviews have been pouring in! I’m really terrified I won’t get a chance to thank everyone?! I want to! Your support is absolutely amazing. I would give you all the cake of the planets. I know it’s easy to think, “Oh Cait has a big blog, she’s fiiiiine,” but seriously it’s the little reviews, the tweets, the preorders, the constant cheering that actually makes this all happen.
  • (And if you’ve done reviews on your blog, please put them up on retailer sites too!! It makes an amazing difference for me! Like Amazon, B&N, Waterstones, etc.!)
  • I’ll be doing a Twitter takeover and Chat on @DateABook on the 12th! This is so cool and I’m totally nervous ha! Be there if you can, I neeeeed you!
  • And on the 11th I’ll be alllll over Hachette NZ’s instagram page for the day, doing snippets of my writers life + so many colourful explosive photos.
  • You seriously can’t get away by this point.
  • My book is featured in a book box! (Click here to know which, but you will get spoilers for the box, obviously!) It even got an exclusive edition (sprayed red edges!) and I signed hundreds of book plates and am still reeling that this dream came true omg. STOKED.
  • And my instagram challenge is finishing up on the 7th but you can STILL JOIN IN! The hashtag is #1000perfectnotes and all the details are here. I’ll leave it running for a few days for latecomers! Winner gets an annotated copy of my book. The final day is for posting a picture of ATPN (or just the cover on your phone if you don’t have a copy yet!) and I’m hoping it gets a bit of buzz (!!!) which will make this world 1000 x better and I will probably climb the walls, but that’s ok. Chill is to be had by no one anyway.

Here are a few questions I get asked quite often! But feel free to ask me things anytime. You know I don’t bite! I mean well I do bite but it’s only a small bite and sometimes people get hungry ok don’t worry about it.

 

Why did you write A Thousand Perfect Notes?

My stories always come from a huge tangle of ideas. I am forever collecting shiny pieces of inspiration and then working out how they can all fit together. For ATPN, I wanted to retell a classical composer’s life…and maybe add in a bit of a genderbent Cinderella. I wanted to talk about music. And passion…and obsession. I wanted to talk about self-worth and friendship and annoying loveable sibling relationships. I wanted to write a book of contrasts, where it’s sometimes dark and bleak…but also warm and hopeful. I wrote a book full of emotions and intensity and I’m so proud of it.

 

What made you keep pursuing publication?

I don’t think I have the hardest publishing journey of anyone on the planet, for sure, BUT !! it was stressful for me. It was long (5 years since I first signed my agent) and I ate several brick walls and wanted to quit a lot. But my #1 dream in life is to walk into a bookstore and see mY BOOK on a shelf. And honestly I am a fiercely motivated Slytherin so I don’t lose my ambitions till death do us part, basically.

 

Easiest vs hardest thing about this book?

Since it’s my debut, there were a LOT of learning curves in the editing. (Trust me, book 2 has already been easier because I know how it works!) So all the little changes (and then never remembering what stayed/what went) was really hard. Also being on submission FRIED MY NERVES TO SATURN AND BACK. The easiest parts? Writing it was actually really fun and not as terrifying as I thought it would be. Watching it grow into a Real Book™ was incredible. Seeing the cover. Knowing it was at book fairs. Having industry professionals say they LOVE IT. Never never never going to get over that my little book that I wrote with half-frozen fingers because it was so cold in my house and had NO IDEA if anyone would even remotely like it — is a real and loved book. I just !!!!!

!!!!!!!

REALLY JUST !!!!!!

 

Biggest loves vs fears of it being out in the world?

I’ve already gushed about seeing people reading it, seeing it in photos, having people tell me it meant a lot to them (!!) So those are my biggest loves. Also, won’t lie: would be tooootally down for it to be a bestseller, turn into a movie, be published in 17 countries, and have no one mention in my signature that my G looks like a 6. (It DOES but shh.) Anyway all those last things have NOT happened. But I can dream.

My fears are all just the cliches! That everyone will hate it (BRAIN, IT’S NOT TRUE!) and honestly I sigh at how some people write August off as a “manic pixie dream girl.” I shouldn’t say anything much once a book is out, it’s out. It’s yours to interpret now! I respect that fully, believe me. But August gets dismissed because she’s happy. That kind of sucks lol lol. (If she was a boy, she also wouldn’t be critiqued for being happy. I see @ you sexism.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) August doesn’t cure Beck, she doesn’t save him, she doesn’t show him how to fix his messed up life. You know what she does? She tells him he’s worth fighting for. She takes him out for cake because he’s upset. She makes herself a safe space. That’s called friendship. 

Anyway I love these two called Beck and August. I LOVE THEM. I’ve been on this journey with them for 3 years and finally they get to find their way out in the world. I AM hAPPY FOR THEM.

 

 

My beginning blogger years were full of me standing atop a box (because I am rather short) saying, “I am taking over THE WORLD.” And everyone smiled and humoured my joke. But look. Look. My book is in dozens of countries. In bookstores. In homes. On kindles. On shelves. Who’s to say I was joking? 

Thank you THANK YOU for supporting me and coming along on this journey! I know I show the sparkly parts a lot, but trust me, there’s blood and tears and hard hard work behind this, and I’m so freaking grateful for everyone who’s helped and believed in me.

I’m pretty freaking proud.

also I’m exhausted I’m going to go melt into the carpet now lmao it was nice knowing you

My Publishing Journey! How I Got An Agent And a Book Deal

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It’s getting to the point where I realise my debut novel comes out in less than a week, and I’m just sit here thinking, “I DID IT???”

I’ve been working towards this for so so long. I often say “IT’S BEEN 5 YEARS IN AZKABAN” because it absolutely has and that’s no small length of time if you think about it. These last 5 years have been absolutely exhausting and full of heartbreak and encouragements and successes and nerves and triumphs — and now I get to actually hold my book???? I sometimes don’t know how to believe this is real.

I’ve been busting to share the details of my publishing journey with you! Every author tumbles into publishing a different way, but it’s interesting to read all the versions…so finally, here we go!

And please FEEL FREE when this post ends, to ask me questions! About publishing or A Thousand Perfect Notes! I may use some of the questions in a little Q&A on release day too.

Do you want to know how I started writing? I have one of those fantastic and heart-warming origin stories.

I was about 6 or 7 years old. I “wrote” the Three Little Bears out with eloquent illustrations and then told my family I’d invented it. HEARTWARMING, SEE? Later, at 12, my little sister started writing stories and was getting way too much attention, so I joined in. But it wasn’t till I was actually 15 that I finished a real book (it was probably barely 40K in retrospect ha) and thought, “Yep, this is going to be my life.”

Author. Bestseller. Adored all over the world. Etc. etc.

I grew up as a rather adorable book monster, the kind who’d hide with Tintin and Narnia on Christmas and ignore everyone, and my house was filled with books…so NONE OF THIS IS MY FAULT. I was doomed. I’ve always been obsessed with storytelling and had an incredible imagination — so figuring out I could tell my own stories plus control the ending plus (obviously) get famous for it someday was life changing.

What more could a little sharp-toothed, curious-eyed book monster want?

At 19, I was ready to start querying.

When I say “I researched”, I mean I was freaking obsessed with it. I still am, honestly. I still research and read and watch and listen to so much about the publishing world.

Before I queried, though: I had critique partners. I’d written dozens of (awful) books. I was really into a few teen writer communities and had feedback from authors. I religiously read advice and tips. I didn’t just work hard, I overworked hard, just in case you wonder if younger-me had some chill?

HAHA HAH AH. NEVER, NO.

 

  • Writing out several versions of my query and ANGUISHING over them.
  • I entered a few contests to get critiques.
  • One (professional) author said, not only did my book not work, my query was awful too.
  • I cried.
  • Seriously querying is super hard on your self-esteem.
  • I queried in the UK and USA. I’m in Australia, but this was 2013 and as much as I researched, I couldn’t find many Aussie agents?! I remember the biggest one took ONLY snail mail! Which they posted back to me…ya, thanks.
  • I pretty much angsted and freaked out over making sure I followed every individual agent’s guidelines.
  • I GOT REJECTIONS.
  • I didn’t actually track it very well, because the rejections were devastating for me and I’m sooo not the whole “Put your rejections on the wall!” type of writer. My opinion on that: the heck no. I put encouragement on my walls, thanks.
  • I did about 20-30 queries? Maybe less.
  • They were all form rejections except…maybe…2?????
  • Mostly there was nothing.
  • Technically I’m still waiting to hear back from about 10 agents.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
  • I started to think Professional Author Who Said I Wasn’t A Good Writer was right…
  • Then I got one yes.
  • I only needed one yes.
  • I signed with Polly Nolan @ Greenhouse Literary UK (who is, by the way, a super agent and our visions for my writing click so so well and I couldn’t be happier)!!! Seriously best moment.
  • This took about 10 months all up.

Things did go slowly at first.

I was signed for a dark YA fantasy that I’d been rewriting and rEWRITING since I was 15, so it was like The Story™ but it needed help. We did a lot of editorial work first. (I still have no idea why I got signed loooool. I’m relieved I did! Don’t get me wrong! BUT HOW DID I GET SIGNED.) Then we went out on submissions to UK publishers.

Then we got rejected.

So my agent said, “What about another book? What about a contemporary?”

And I being (a) desperate, (b) incredibly motivated to work my eyeballs out, (c) wanting this dream to be a reality mORE THAN ANYTHING, (d) being excruciatingly good at saying “yes” and thinking later, and (e) really open to advice…

I said “I’D LOVE TO!”

(Note: I had written 15 books before this. None of which were contemporary.)

Apparently, it seems, I am tolerably good at contemporary. I insert a smug little cute smile here.

Because in 2015 I wrote a little book called “Tremolo.” After revisions and edits, my agent suggested the title, A Thousand Perfect Notes.

In 2016, when I was twenty-one, I signed a 2-book contemporary deal with Orchard / Hachette Children’s UK.

I actually got the email at 4am, because WHO SLEEPS (#insomniac #life) and waited until about 8am for my family to rise from the dead so I could just lurk awkwardly and stare at them which is absolutely how you convey you have a book deal. I swear, I’m super good at communication.

I stood atop a mountain for about 6 months, just screaming in relief. I am a good writer. I am worth a book deal. I worked so freaking hard and long for this and I made it.

(Also I apologies to everyone I ABSOLUTELY LIED TO for the 16 months between signing my deal and announcing it. Ha ha hahaha. Oh wow. I am great.)

Has it been a super easy road?! OH YOU SWEET SUMMER CHILD.

Haha hahha no.

As you can see, I didn’t have any magical shortcuts. I didn’t do query contests or pitchwars (I didn’t even have a twitter for ages?!) and I didn’t have 4989 agents asking for me or 9389 publishers vying for my book. I am the poster child of: “IT JUST TAKES ONE YES” for publishing. And it is so true. This is success and I am proud and happy! And freaKING NERVOUS.

I have social anxiety and autism, which makes communicating hard for me, but my agent and publisher has been 100% onboard with meeting my needs. I have a big online audience, but it actually did 0% in getting my book deal. (It’s the writing that’s important, peoples!) And little things went wrong along the way…like my ARCs didn’t have my copy-edits in them, and I didn’t get to do a cover reveal, and there’s been lots of niggling things behind-the-scenes that haven’t been perfect. I have stressed. I have eaten through a few brick walls.

I’m not telling you that to complain. I’m saying publishing isn’t perfectly smooth for anyone! It has its highs and lows. I’m pretty sure 0% of debut authors have got it all together.

And between all the waiting and hoping — I was writing. If I can ever give one piece of advice to writers pursuing publication: WRITE AND WRITE SOME MORE. Write literally millions of words. Nothing makes you better and more confident than sheer amounts of practise.

 

And the things I still can’t stop happily freaking out about??

Getting translation deals! Seeing people wanting for my book without me having to spend 398 years begging them to read it like I did pre-getting-a-deal (HAHAH LIFE IS SWEET). My editors saying the most AMAZING things about my owrk. Also my editor crying…oh oh my halo just slipped can someone grab that for me.

Having people understand my work. Having professionals improve my work and now my writing is 100 x better and I still can’t get over that. Having my book go to book festivals in Europe! Getting a gorgeous cover (!!!) Knowing I have a SECOND book coming out in 2019. My publishers bought a book off me that didn’t even EXIST yet. I still can’t get over how amazing that is.

And holding my hard work in my trembling paws and knowing that I finally finally did it after I thought I might never get here.

I am all sparkly and my heart is so full right now!

 

Also, I will just say: getting a book deal is wonderful for the self-confidence. 10/10 would recommend.

Thanks for coming along on this publishing journey! Even if you’ve just started reading my blog or been here for the last 7 years…it’s been amazing to share this with you! Look I’m getting emotional, ugh, someone bury me.

A Thousand Perfect Notes is out in just 5 days!

if you’re a writer, feel free to tell me what your journey has looked like so far! plus ASK ME QUESTIONS! about my book(s) or publishing! i am answering!

Favourite vs Things I Shriek Plaintively At About The Author Life

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A wonderful thing about writing is how we love and rant about it all the time, usually in the same breath.

I do this about types of sandwiches too. It’s honestly very soothing to make favourite vs least favourite lists for just about anything. Although honestly, you could threaten to toss me into a black hole in space and I still would not eat grated soggy carrot on a sandwich. Do I look like a monster with no standards.

Now since I have a book coming out (hOW iS it onLY 13 MOrE DayS) I thought it’d be prudent to talk about what I LOVE vs DISLIKE about the author life! This gives you a great opportunity to get to know more of my utterly professional writing life and not get worried that I wrote my book out of crumbs and crayons while shrieking back at the whispers in the trees.

Haha, I did not. Don’t regret your preorders. Please. I love you.

☆ THAT BRILLIANT BURST OF INSPIRATION

Okay so “brilliant” might be my humble * side coming out, but I can’t even describe the satisfaction that comes when you smack through a plot problem or just get that sliver of an idea that’ll tie two pieces of plot together. And my feelings are just: !!!!!! Seriously, if exclamation marks were a feeling, IT’D BE ME. Those moments are what makes me fall sparkly-eyed in love with writing.

* LMAO WHAT IS THAT. DO I HAVE ONE.

 

☆ REREADING YOUR WORK AND ACTUAL LIKING IT

It took me yeeeears to get there, but HEY. I have arrived. First drafts are still dubious but I actually genuinely love my work and this is so satisfying.

 

☆ WHEN YOUR HUMOUR IS ACTUALLY FUNNY

I swear writing humour is like having someone stand 12ft away away and throw an egg in your mouth. IT’S SO HARD TO MAKE IT WORK. Like: am I sleep deprived or is this brilliant wit??? And half the time my book’s humour is like I just wrote the blooper reel into the book. (I may or may not have a scene in A Thousand Perfect Notes where a “big secret” is revealed and instead of kindness, the love interest just laughs and laughs and laughs. So supportive. Much kind.) But when you know you got that scene’s humour right?? BREAK OUT THE CAKE FOR I AM SKILLZ.

 

☆ WRITING EASTER EGGS

Whyyy did no one never mention how fun this is!?? My book’s are actual minefields of references, sometimes to fandoms or things I like or a meme (or even my blogggg!). But the best is when I can reference my own books. I knoooow. Small things amuse small minds but I get such pleasure out of this.

Although lowkey disappointed that “writing easter eggs” does not involve, in fact, any chocolate eggs. Sometimes the world fails us in the most horrible ways.

 

☆ WRITING HIGHLY-STRUNG EMOTIONAL SCENES

I insert a deviously malicious smiley face here. HA. I love writing those moments where everything and everyone is just breaking, and maybe nearly-crying or fighting emotions or losing their mind over something terrible happening. THIS IS MY MOMENT. I also actually do a lot of unique-formatting with my words too. This pleases me.

THIS IS FROM A WORK-IN-PROGRESS.

 

☆ BEGINNINGS

Bring me the BEGINNING this is where I thrive! Or, well, where I cry marginally less. OK actually in the last fantasy book I wrote I wanted to stab my book’s opening. But usually the beginnings are my favourite because there’s lots of banter and not everyone is DEAD YET.

 

☆ WHEN SOMEONE ELSE LOVES YOUR BOOK.

THIS GOES WITHOUT SAYING. BUT IT IS THE FREAKING BEST THING IN THE WORLD AND I CAN’T EVEN. Also making people cry? Right up there too.

Um, yeah, I am a nice person. I return my library books on time, I pet my dog, I often vacuum the whole house for my family. And I thrive on the dark glory of making people cry when reading my books. I don’t know what else to tell you. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

☆ HOLDING YOUR BOOK AND KNOWING YOU NEVER HAVE TO READ IT AGAIN.

Hah haha hahha. I’m so sorry. But it is such a beautiful moment…like omg look at YOUR SON. It’s all grown up and wearing clothes a cover now and has hopefully no typos and is ready to trot off into the world and and offend someone probably be loved by all.

I LOVE HOLDING MY BOOK. LOVE IT.

☆ WAITING…AND WAITING…AAAAND WAITING

The road to being an author is 67% waiting and thinking about cheesecake. Let no one tell you differently. This has me shrieking constantly and I’m pretty sure they hear me in Peru and everyone there is just crossing fingers and hoping I pass out at some point to give them a break. BUT I SWEAR, WAITING NEVER GETS EASIER.

 

☆ THE FIRST TIME YOU LET YOUR NEW BABY PROJECT OUT INTO THE WORLD FOR HUMAN EYE CONSUMPTION.

Ughhh I swear this is why I procrastinate so much. It’s that moment when you have to go: “OK someone else is going to read my book for the first time and prOBABLY HATE IT and I will die a quiet slow death in the mountains with only a goat and a square of cheese to last out my final hours before the bog mires take me.”

I mean, that’s literally never happened. But my brain assures me the next time will be it.

 

☆ COPY EDITING

Because it’s hard!! By this point I’ve read my book 500 times and I want to put in a pot with a few stones and when the stones are soft, that’s when I feel like looking at my manuscript again. (lol lol what a roast…what a pot roast.) (YEAH OK I’LL STOP NOW.) But I also am just terrified of typos getting through. I’m a little dyslexic so spelling is…haha. What is that.

 

☆ FINISHING A PROJECT AND ENTERING THE VOID

I need to be working!! Always !! working !! And if I finish a project with nothing immediately to move onto…

This is me 1000% in gif format.

“Take a break!” they say. “It’ll recharge you they say!” WELL I’D RATHER PANIC, THANKS. I like to always be stewing on something, so if I’m in a void where I’m either (a) blocked, or (b) super blocked, or (c) bLocKEd and WaiTING and bLOCKED = then expect me to just stand there shrieking. Forever.

 

☆ WORRY THAT MY CHARACTERS OR IDEAS ARE TOO SIMILAR

Nothing’s more fun than self-plagiarising. OF COURSE. And I’ve written thirty-drafts of novels so it’s up to the point where I am like, “IS THIS NEW GENIUS OR STOLEN GENIUS FROM ANOTHER OF MY BOOKS.” Mostly I just shriek and eat ice cream. There is no cure. There is only dOOM.

 

☆ NEGATIVE REVIEWS

I mean. Obviously. And look I learned my lesson! I read a bunch of negative reviews about two months ago and I have not looked at ANY reviews since. (Except for some super lovely ones people sent me.) Although lowkey d y i n g that I’ve been tagged in some negative reviews. Like I do not expect everyone to love my book, but reviews aren’t for the author so leeeeeave me out of it.

 

☆ ALL THE GENERAL HARD STUFF

Like when you have to rewrite THE WHOLE BOOK. Or you’re absolutely blocked on solving a problem. Or you’re sick of your book. Or if you read super good books by other authors and despair of ever being good enough. Rejection! Forgetting how to use words! Spilling crumbs over your laptop! Chewing through a brick wall! Forgetting your characters’ names! nOT BEING SURE WHAT YOUR BOOK IS ABOUT!

BEING TOLD YOU ONLY GOT A BOOK DEAL BECAUSE YOU HAVE A LOT OF FOLLOWERS. (This is so so unfair lol lol.)

All that stuff.

So fun. Much hard. It makes me all shriek.

And yet somehow it doesn’t outweigh the good stuff?! It absolutely just does not. As hard as writing is (and it is hard and I’ve put absolutely thousands of hours into it), it is still my favourite thing and I will be an unashamed sap here and just say:

i really love the magic of telling stories and i can never never stop

tell me YOUR best vs worst parts about writing?! do you struggle with the beginnings, middles, or ends the most? are you constantly thinking up ideas or can you take breaks??